ATM 1:A Total Mess (FBS#1)

Chapter 46

The Brave and The Affected

Angelo's POV

Agad akong umuwi sa bahay after naming mag-usap ni Alicia. Itinuloy ko na yung pagpasok namin ni Alicia sa Western Restaurant para hindi masayang yung reservation ko. But I didn't do that just to have a lunch with her. I did that to end things with her. And yes, we're over. I know I'm too cruel to do that, but I think that's the best I can do to not worsen things up on us. It's just... okay, fine. I'll be brave this time to admit my true feelings even to myself. I do love Samantha. And maybe I love her already before the time she left me to study in London. I'm just too coward to admit that. 'Coz back then, I was so hurt but I don't know what to do... or rather what to say. I'm afraid that she'll leave me like what Ali did to me and that she just proved me that I'm right when she left me. But technically, I'm wrong. She just left me to collect herself because of what I did. Because she was really hurt , and I really want to punch myself because that's because of me. That's because I'm an as*shole. I'm so stupid to hurt a girl who just loved me dearly. And I'm so stupid to think that she was just special to me and that I'm so cruel to Alicia that I gather our relationship again when she was back although I do really knew to myself that I already have feelings for Samantha.

At kanina, I saw Alicia cry and begged for me not to leave her. And all I did was to say 'I'm so sorry' although I know that that was the last thing she would want to heard from me that time.

But I really need to do that. I don't wanna fool her as much as I don't wanna fool myself anymore. I love Samantha ang I'll do everything to make her fall for me again.

And about the 'special place' thingy, she just misinterpret that all. That place was special to me not because of Alicia, but because of my parents. Because that place was the place where our first family date happened and I'm really happy that time. It's like a dream come true for me, because mom and dad dedicate theirselves to their works and they don't have enough time for me. So when my 7th birthday came, I didn't expect that they will exert some time and effort to go out with me for a family date. And we ate dinner together, for the first time, to that place. And that is the real reason why that place mean so much to me.

Pagdating ko sa bahay ay wala si Sam. I called my secretary, John, to track her. And he said that Sam is in their ancestral house. I know madaming katulong at bodyguards 'don kaya naman tumawag na lang ako doon, and luckily, ang mayordoma ng bahay ang nakasagot at hindi si Samantha. I asked her na bantayan si Sam 'don and make sure that she was okay. She also agreed to not tell Sam that I called. Why? Bakit di ko siya pupuntahan? 'Cause I want her to spend some time alone. I know masyado na siyang nahihirapan sa mga nangyayari. Just a day, Sam. But don't think na hahayaan na lang kita.

Before I ate my dinner, I called the mayordoma again and dinalhan na nila ng pagkain si Sam sa kwarto niya, iniwan na lang daw nila doon sa side table dahil natutulog na daw ito. 

I sighed in frustation after the call. I put the phone down and looked at the food I cooked. I don't know what comes inside me to cooked so many d*mn foods kahit mag-isa lang naman akong kakain ng lahat ng 'to.

Sam didn't eat her dinner their. I really wanna go to their ancestral house and dalhin ang lahat ng niluto ko, but then, I thought she needs time. And when a day ends, patatabain ko siya. I smiled at the thought. Matigas ang ulo niya, alam kong hindi ko siya basta mapapasunod. But I guess I can handle her, sana... 

Nakahiga na ko sa kama, pero kanina pa ko hindi makatulog. Ugh! Can I just spend a day without her? D*mn it! Bukas na bukas talaga pupuntahan ko na siya.

I called to their house again telling them to connect the control of the CCTV to my phone. And luckily, pumayag sila.

I just watched her sleep. Maya-maya, himdi ko namalayang nakatulog na ko.