Song for the chapter: Love in the Middle of a Firefight by Dillon Francis and Brendon Urie
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As the night goes on, I start to feel the effects more and more. For the first time in four months, I feel better. I know that these feelings won't last since it is just the alcohol, so I try to do my best of not thinking about anything else besides tonight.
My body is tingly and warm all over. I have made more friends and I laugh at everything that they say. Drunk people are my favorite kind of people, they're so friendly. I wish I could be drunk all of the time, then I would always be happy. I have been asked to dance by a few guys tonight, but I turn them down. I wasn't drunk enough to do anything with any boy besides talk to them. Everytime I turn them down, Linley yells at me and tells me that I need to hook up with someone, just for tonight. The thought repulses me, I wasn't the kind of girl to hook up with a guy for a night. Especially since the only guy I had ever been with was Luke.
I take another drink when I think of the name. I was already on my third cup of the blueberry vodka mixed with sprite.
Linley, Connor and I were all standing around talking to a few people when a brown-haired boy walks over and stands next to me. He is taller than me, so I look up at him. I had never seen him before.
"Hey," he says with a smile.
"Hi," I say back shyly.
"I don't think we've met before," he says as he turns to face me. "I'm Nathan."
"Allis," I say with a smile.
He smiles at my name. "What's a pretty girl like you doing here tonight?" He asks.
"She's here to have a good time," Linley says with a smile before I have the chance to say anything about how I was forced to come here and get drunk to forget my ex-boyfriend.
"Well I'll make sure that that happens," he says back with another smile. I don't know if it was just the alcohol or if I really thought this, but he was pretty attractive.
After a while of standing there and talking amongst ourselves, Nathan asks me to dance. When I say yes, Connor immediately asks Lin if she wants to dance. She hesitates, surely thinking of Michael.
"It's just dancing, it's not like you're making out with him or anything," I say to her. I know that Michael wouldn't care about harmless dancing. I knew him too well.
"Okay," she says.
I wasn't quite sure how I was going to dance when I could barely stand up. I drink more in case I embarrass myself, then I won't have to remember it. I close my eyes as I dance with Nathan. He is a good dancer, holding my hips and moving them for me so I don't have to do much work. Within minutes I feel his cold fingers on my skin as my shirt slides up a little. I don't mind his soft touch, and the coldness feels good against my hot body. I lose myself in the music. For the first time in a while, my mind is blank and I'm not thinking about anything. I wish it was this empty all of the time.
I don't know how long we dance, nor do I know how many songs we've been through. All I know is that I'm feeling great, not having a care in the world. Suddenly, I feel Nathan's hand grab mine. He starts to walk and leads me away from the rest of the crowd.
"Where are we going?" I slur and laugh.
"You'll see," I hear him yell over the music.
He takes me around the corner and we are alone on the side of the house. I lean against the brick wall and he stands in front of me. There isn't much light over here so I can barely see him.
"So tell me about yourself Allis," he says with a smile.
There's so much I could tell him, so much to know about me. I'm sure he wouldn't care about any of it and I didn't want to share anything. Telling my sob story would bore him and probably make him leave. I wanted to forget about all of it anyways.
"How about we forget about me, and you tell me about you," I say. My words are running together and it almost sounds like I'm speaking a different language.
"Well, I'm from Melbourne, I enjoy listening to music, and I think you're beautiful," he says as he steps a little closer to me.
"Oh really?" I ask.
"Yes. Oh, and one more thing you should know." He is now only inches from my face.
"And what is that?" I whisper. I haven't been this close to a boy since Luke left. If it weren't for the alcohol, I would be freaking out and I probably would have run away by now.
"I can definitely show you a good time," he whispers.
Before I have the chance to say anything, his lips collide with mine.
