Song I recommend for the chapter: Let the Light Come In by Rose Cousins
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A few hours later Luke wakes me up and we go to Michael's. We meet Ash and Calum there and wait for Michael and Linley to get home from their date. I couldn't wait to see her reaction when Michael asks her.
When they get there, Michael tells her that he invited us over for a movie night; but that they first need to practice a song for us. As Linley and I sit in the garage on the couch, the boys play a song that we had heard once before a very long time ago. The song is called Don't Stop, it is very upbeat and I love it even more the second time. After they finish playing it, Michael says a cute little line about how he doesn't want her to stop being with him, and asks if she will go on tour with us. Her face is priceless and she screams before jumping into his arms. When she figures out that I am going to, she almost starts crying from happiness. I can understand; I couldn't wait to travel the world with my best friends. It all felt too good to be true.
After hanging out with them for a while, Luke and I go home at a decent time. I am spending the day with my father tomorrow and need to be well-rested. Especially since I would be informing him tomorrow that I'm going on tour with my boyfriend and his band.
For once in my life, I do care about what my father will say about this whole situation. I am hoping that he will respect my decision, but if he doesn't I will still be going anyway. He is my father, but I will refuse to let him control what I do. Since he hasn't been around for basically my whole life, he has no right to tell me what I can and cannot do. Luke reassures me and tells me that he thinks my dad will be fine with it; but a small part of me can't help but worry. I wish Luke could go with me, but I feel as if I need to do this alone. Bradley is going with me since he also needs to see our dad, but he will hopefully be distracted by something else when I bring it up.
When we get home, Luke and I take a quick shower together before cuddling up in bed.
"I know you're worried about tomorrow," he says to me as we lay in the dark, "but I really think that everything will be okay. I don't think that your dad is going to do something to push you away just after he got you back."
I sigh and snuggle myself closer into his body. "You're right. I really don't think that he will either, but I honestly have no idea what to expect from him anymore, not after everything. I just really hope it goes okay," I say back.
"It will and if it doesn't, you know I will be right here waiting for you. But it's gonna be okay. I know I would never want to push you away again." His arms tighten around me and it is the greatest feeling in the world. Luke made me feel so warm, so loved. He was too good to me and sometimes I knew that I didn't deserve him, but I won't let him get away. I won't take him for granted.
That being said, I needed to tell him about Louis. I can't go on tour with both of them while Luke doesn't know about our kiss. After everything that I have made him tell me, I have a lot to tell him and it isn't fair of me to keep all of it from him. I contemplate telling him in this moment, but decide against it and figure it will be better to do when we are both more awake. Of course I am terrified of what he is going to say and do, but I have to believe that it will go okay; just like with my father.
"I love you Luke," I whisper after a moment of silence.
I can feel him smile against my cheek and his warm body relaxes against my own. "I love you Allis, good night."
He kisses me lightly on the lips and soon enough we both fall asleep in the darkness.
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