Song for the chapter: Black Sun by Death Cab for Cutie
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Luke's POV
There was nothing better than waking up to Allis's beautiful face. The way her soft, green eyes were filled with so much life no matter how tired she was, the way her hair was perfectly tangled just like our legs, and the way a smile was plastered on her face when she looked at me. All of these things, along with many others, were the reasons that I wanted to wake up to her for the rest of my life.
"Good morning gorgeous," I say after she turns her alarm off. She had set it for 10 o'clock so that I would get up and go talk to Michael. I couldn't be happier that she was staying home with me again, but it saddened me that this would be the last weekend that I had with her for a while.
"Good morning to you too handsome," she smiles sleepily and snuggles back into me.
I sigh into her hair that always smelled freshly of pomegranate mixed with some type of flower from her shampoo. "Do I really have to go?" I ask.
"I don't want you to, but we really need to find out what's going on with Michael," she says into my chest.
She was right. Michael hasn't been acting like himself for a while now and I was going to get to the bottom of it. "Okay babe." I kiss the top of her head before bringing her face up to mine and planting a small kiss on her lips. "Get some more sleep, I'll be back later."
"Okay. I love you," she says groggily, digging her face into the pillows. The words never fail to give me a warm feeling in my heart, a feeling that nobody else could give me.
"I love you baby," I whisper and pull the covers back over her before walking out the door. I quickly change into a pair of sweats and a black t-shirt and grab my keys from the guest bedroom that I was supposed to be staying in.
I blast blink-182 through my speakers and think about what I'm going to say to Michael as I make the drive to his house. I knew that he wasn't going to talk to me, at least not easily, but I had to get through to him. He was being a complete ass. Nobody knows why he broke up with Lin, I don't even think she herself knows. And what the hell was he thinking messing around with Myra? Obviously I'm not one to talk since I had my share of hook ups with her, but that was during my bad days. The awful time in my life before Allis walked in and changed everything.
It seems so unfamiliar to me now, even though it was only a few months ago that I didn't even know who she was. I honestly don't know where I would be if I had not met her, probably somewhere drunk or high with some girl. I still don't know what I was thinking when I left her, I hate thinking about it. All I can do is be extremely thankful that she gave me another chance when I didn't deserve it and show her how appreciative I am of her. I thank God everyday that he led me to her, she changed me in the best way possible. She changed everything.
When I pull up to the familiar house, I realize that I spent most of the time thinking about Allis instead of how I'm going to get through to Michael. She tends to take over my mind and block out everything else. "Shit," I mumble to myself. I get out of the car and decide that I will just have to come up with something as I go. I knock on the door and hope that he is actually here. I have to knock three more times before the door finally opens up to the man himself.
He looked the worst I had ever seen him. There were dark bags underneath his eyes that were still bloodshot. He looked abolutely exhausted, mentally and physically. The only thing that looked good was his freshly dyed hair, which was many different shades of purple and blue. It looked as if there was a whole galaxy on his head, it was sick.
"Can I come in?" I ask.
"Yeah man," he says sleepily.
"Did you just wake up?" I ask him as we make our way to the garage. It was our go-to place when his parents were home, but we still went there even though we were alone in the house.
"I wish, I've barely slept in the last two days." We both take a seat on the couch in front of where our instruments used to be set up. Ashton's drumset was still there since he got a new one, but all of our guitars were missing. I missed practicing in here everyday after school.
"What is going on with you Mikey? And don't say nothing because I always know when something is wrong. And right now, I know that something is very wrong."
He looks down at his entwined hands that are sitting in his lap. When he looks back up at me before speaking, I can see a hint of tears rimming his eyes. "I fucked up man," he whispers.
"Yeah, you did. Why? What happened? And most importantly, why Myra?" I ask quickly. I stop asking questions when I realize he hasn't even answered my first question.
"I love Linley, I'm crazy about her Luke," he says with a large gulp full of tears that I know he is holding back.
"I know, so why did you hurt her so bad?"
"Because I'm scared. I've never felt like this about anyone, you know this. When we went away on tour, I realized how much I missed and needed her and it really scared the shit out of me. So I got scared and I dumped her. I don't know what I was thinking. That night I went out to the club by myself and Myra just happened to be there. We got wasted and I don't really remember what happened..." He trails off.
"Did you..." I trail off, expecting him to know what I am asking.
"I don't know, I honestly can't remember. I hope not. But anyways, I woke up with her the next day and we got high all day. I was upset about Lin and she talked me into it. Now Linley probably hates me and here I am, the fuck-up."
"Hey," I reach over and put my hand on his shoulder. "Yes, you did fuck up. But we all do. I messed everything up with Allis, you know how bad that was for me. Then I got her back and I couldn't be happier. Lin misses you dude, she's miserable just like you. Go to her. I know she will take you back, she loves you too."
"Why do I feel like this Luke? I'm not sure if I want to be in love if it's scaring me this much. I'm a grown man and this kind of shit is freaking me out," he laughs nervously.
"I know. I was scared at first too, that's why I pushed Allis away. But I let myself fall for her and it was the best decision of my life. You just have to take a risk, I promise it's worth it."
"You're right," he sighs.
"Go get her man. But you need to clean yourself up first, you look awful," I laugh and he actually laughs as well. "I'm really digging your hair though."
"Thanks mate, I love it. But I'm gonna go clean up, so get out," he smiles. We give each other a bro hug and I leave, feeling accomplished and happier than ever to go spend the day with the girl that I am hopelessly in love with.
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A/N
Hey guys, hope you liked this chapter. Now we all know why Michael was being such an ass and we can forgive him :)
Thank you to those who commented on my last chapter answering my question, but I didn't recieve enough answers in order to make a decision. Please go back and read the last author's note and answer it for me, I really appreciate it!
love you guys xx
