A few days go by and so far I am still loving the life of being with the boys as they tour. Each city we go to is a new adventure. We explore many beautiful parts and I can't help but fall in love with not only the city, but the people as well. Linley and I meet so many girls at the concerts and they're all so nice. It sucks that we only get to be friends for one night, but it's worth it knowing that I have the four best friends and Luke by my side.
One disadvantage of all of this is not being able to show any PDA while we're out in public. I love holding Luke's hand, or kissing him on the cheek occasionally, but I can't do that unless we are alone. We decided to not come out about our relationship to the public yet. Michael and Linley haven't as well. It would be too much stress to have questions about our relationship and such. Plus I have seen all of the hate that celebrities girlfriend's get, and I don't want that. It's not like I wouldn't be able to handle it, because after all, I'm the one that has Luke at the end of the day. However, I don't want to upset the fans and make them hate me. After all, I have seen stars that I loved in the past with girlfriends and it has sucked. I don't want girls feeling bad about themselves just because I am dating their biggest celebrity crush. I've seen the way some of these girls look at the boys.
I also don't want people to think that I'm just using Luke for his money and fame. I don't need either of those things as long as I have Luke. He was perfect, he was mine, and he was all that I ever needed.
I can tell by each show that the boys are getting better and better at performing. They are amazing and I didn't think it was possible for them to improve any more, but they continue to prove me wrong. Every time that I see Luke on stage, my hormones go through the roof. Whenever I get him alone, I can't keep my hands off of him. It's hard having an incredibly hot boyfriend, especially when he comes off stage all sweaty.
We hang out with the One Direction boys a lot. Well, the three that we see. Louis and Harry are always off by themselves somewhere, so I haven't even seen Louis except while he's on stage. Niall, Liam and Zayn do stuff with us almost every night after the shows and I learn to love them fast. Anybody would. They are some of the nicest people I have ever met, even though they are in the biggest boyband in the world. You would think that these guys would be total assholes, but that is the complete opposite.
I still miss Louis.
Tomorrow, we will be going back to my home state: Ohio. I was excited, but also not so much. I couldn't wait to have that feeling back of being in the state that I belonged in and missed so much. I also couldn't wait to see my long lost best friend, Abigail. On the other hand, I wasn't ready to face Ben once again.
I didn't know what to expect from him tomorrow, he continued to surprise me every day that he was in Australia visiting me. Things with him could go one of three ways. The first scenario is that I wouldn't even see him at all. I wouldn't be surprised if he avoided me while I was there. Of course I still wanted to see him, just not if he would be causing problems. Second, he could act like nothing had ever even happened in Australia and we could go back to how we were. That's the most unlikely.
The last and worst scenario is that he continues on being an asshole and trying to get me to break up with Luke, which wasn't going to ever happen. I didn't know how to make that go through his head, but it had to be done. If he couldn't understand that, then we wouldn't ever be able to be just friends again. By his choice, not mine.
Now that Luke knew about Ben, I would have to keep both of them from doing anything insane and drastic.
"Babe?" I say and look up at him.
I was laying in his arms in our king-sized hotel bed. It was the most comfy one we've had yet and I didn't want to get out of it in the morning. Or ever.
"Yeah?" He asks back with a smile, sinking down to my level so that we are face to face.
"I need to talk to you about something," I say.
"What's wrong?" He asks with a semi-worried look on his face. His bottom lip slightly pouts out and I can't help but smile.
"Nothing, nothing at all," I smile. I run my thumb over his lip, gently passing over that shiny lip ring that I adored so much. "We're going to Ohio tomorrow."
"Yes," he says with a smile.
"You understand that...we might see Ben," I say quietly. His eyes grow a tad bit darker, but he nods. "We might not even see him. But if we do, I need you to promise me that you won't do anything stupid."
"I just hate that he feels that way about you. I want you all to myself," he pouts.
"You have me Luke. You have all of me, forever, and you know that." I put my hands on both sides of his face. His cheeks were getting to be quite stubbly. I swear he aged about ten years every day. Each day he got more and more attractive. "But I don't want you guys to get in a fight. I really want us to all just forget about what happened, but I know that won't happen. Please, just don't do anything. For me." This time, I pout my lip out.
He sighs deeply, puffing hot air into my face. "Fine. But only because you're so cute when you ask me to do things."
I smile and pull his face to mine for a gentle kiss that quickly turns passionate.
At least I had Luke on board to be calm, now it's all up to Ben to be smart. If he really cared about me, he would quit this nonsense. All I can do now is wait.
We'll see how much he really cares.
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HI OMG
I am so incredibly sorry for taking forever to update. My job and school has taken over my life, please forgive me. I know that this is short, but I HAD to give you guys something. I will be back soon, I promise. Thank you so much for staying with me, you're all amazing.
P.S. this book hit a million reads and wow i just can't even believe it. you guys are the best forever
P.s.s. I started another luke book (whoops) and I'm really enjoying writing it so you should check it out pls? I'd love you forever and ever.
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