Song I recommend for the chapter: Small Bump by Ed Sheeran
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As the weeks go on, I spend more and more time with my father. Luke is surprised at this, but he doesn't question it; instead he occasionally joins me when I go with Bradley to visit him. I have given up on trying to figure out myself why I made the decision to let him in again.
I thought it would be awkward since I had been so rude to my dad in the past few months, but it wasn't at all. It actually somewhat felt like how it used to feel when I was just a kid, before he turned into the horrible person that I am starting to believe he actually has left behind.
"You seem to be in a really good mood lately," Luke says to me after I kiss his nose. We were laying in my bed cuddling after spending a day with Bradley and my dad.
"Well I have a lot of reasons to be. First of all, I'm finally getting along with my dad which actually means a lot. It's summer, I get to lay here with you every night, and I'm going with you when you're on tour. I really couldn't ask for anything better at the moment," I say with a smile.
"I'm glad you're happy baby, you deserve it." He smiles and pulls me tighter against his warm body. "Have you told your dad about coming with me?"
"No, I haven't told him yet. I was waiting until most of the tension went away, and I think it mostly has. I will probably tell him the next time I see him. I hope he takes it okay..."I trail off.
"I think everything will be just fine. I'm sure that he's glad to be a part of your life again, so it'll be okay," he assures me.
"You're right. Thank you," I smile up at him and snuggle into his neck.
"For what?" He asks.
I pull away a tad so that I am face to face with him. "For being here, for being you; for being the boy that changed everything. You're just so perfect Luke, and I don't think you realize how perfect you are for me."
"I love you so much more babe, more than yesterday," he whispers and pulls me close once again.
I smile and have no choice but to take in the scent that is overwhelming my nose. Being in his arms, smelling the mixture of his cologne and natural smell and feeling him breathe against my own body sends me to another world. Luke is my heaven on earth. "Did you ever think that we would make it this far? That we would be laying here, telling each other how much we loved each other?" I ask him.
He sits up and I do as well, facing each other on my bed. He takes my hands in his and holds them in his lap. "Honestly, no. I won't lie, ever since I met you, I wanted this with you. I didn't know it at first, but I did know that there was something about you. I didn't think that we would ever be like this because I didn't expect you to put up with my shit. But I'm so grateful that you have stuck by my side, especially after everything that I have put you through. Let me just tell you that nobody else would ever stay with me and continue to take me back like you have, but I'm glad that you have. I couldn't be more thankful that it's you. It will always be you, Allis."
His words take my breath away, make my heart skip beats. I didn't know how any of this was real and not just some dream, but I was glad it wasn't. I felt like any minute someone would pinch me and I would wake up alone, always wanting to go back to sleep and continue dreaming; but I didn't have to. This was real and nothing could be more perfect. "I will always love you Luke. You make everything better, you make me better. You amaze me more and more everyday and I couldn't ever ask for anything else." I crawl into his lap and lay on his shoulder as he holds me and runs his long fingers through my hair.
"Allis?" He asks.
"Yes babe?" I look up at him and ask.
"N-nothing. I just love you, more than anything."
I wanted to ask him what he was going to say, but I decide against it and just stay in this moment that I wish would last forever.
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The next day I wake up in Luke's arms of course, and there's no other way I'd want to wake up.
"Good morning beautiful," he says with a smile and plants a kiss on my forehead.
"Good morning baby," I say back with a yawn.
"Do you know what today is?" He asks.
"I don't think so, what is it?" I ask back.
"Two weeks until we leave," he says excitedly.
"Oh my gosh!" I yell. "I didn't even realize it was that soon! Luke, I have so much to do! I haven't even started packing and I'm sure Linley is going to want to go shopping, and I still have to say goodbye to some people!"
"Babe," he cuts me off. "It's okay," he laughs. "It'll be fine. We still have some time, and I'll help you with everything. Don't worry, okay?"
I take a deep breath and push the stress away for now. "Okay..." I trail off. "Wait, has Michael even asked Lin yet?" I ask.
"Well...Not exactly," he answers.
"Why not?!" I exclaim again. "We only have two weeks left!"
"I know, he knows. I think he's gonna do it either today or tomorrow. He wanted to do it in a big way, but I'm not sure how he's planning on doing it."
"Well hopefully he does it soon, we all know how much she's gonna pack," I laugh. "Speaking of leaving, have you talked to Louis?" I ask shyly. I haven't seen Louis for a while and didn't even think about the fact that I would be touring with him as well.
"Not recently, why?" He asks.
"I just didn't know if you told him I was coming with you," I say plainly.
"Oh, no I haven't. I figured you would have," he responds.
"Well I haven't seen him for a while..." I trail off. I decide to leave the part about where he kissed me out of the conversation. I know that I need to tell Luke, but I shouldn't right now. I didn't want Luke to get mad and try to do something to Louis, especially when they are about to go on tour again together.
"I see. Well I'm sure we'll see him sometime before we head out, we can tell him then."
"Yeah, you're right," I say.
"Come on, let's go take a shower," he says.
"Okay, I'll be there in a minute."
He gets out of bed and walks to the bathroom where I soon here the water turn on. I lay in bed for a minute and think about how I haven't seen Louis much since we shared that kiss. How was he going to feel about me going on tour with them?
I needed to tell him, soon; and I needed to do it alone.
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A/N
I didn't proofread, I apologize. This isn't a very eventful chapter, but I needed to put something out and needed a filler. It will get good soon. Love you guys xx
-B
