My eyes flutter open and I am almost blinded by the light that is shining in from the curtains. I roll over when I don't feel Luke's arm around me and find nothing but wrinkled sheets and his absence. I rub my eyes, surely smearing the makeup that I forgot to take off last night. I force myself out of bed, but drag the comforter along with me. The room wouldn't be that cold if I was wearing more than just Luke's oversized t-shirt and my underwear. As I scan the room for any trace of him, I find the clothes he had on last night alongside a damp towel right next to the bathroom. Typical Luke, never cleaning up after himself. I walk over to the small table beside the fridge and take a seat as I pick up the little piece of white paper with the hotel's name at the top.
Went to soundcheck and didn't want to wake you. Spend the day being lazy until you guys need to be at the venue. If you do plan on going anywhere, you and Linley can call our driver. I love you and can't wait to see your beautiful face in the crowd tonight.
- Luke
I smile at his cute words witten sloppily on the paper. I debate on going to wake Linley up since I know for a fact that she is still asleep, but know there is something else I need to do instead. I walk back over to the bed and grab my phone from the nightstand.
Hey, wanna get lunch? Luke is at soundcheck and I'm free until tonight. I'd love to catch up.
I send a quick text to Ben. Little does he know I'm only asking to confront him about his child-like behavior. My phone vibrates sooner than expected and I am glad to see it's from him.
Of course :) Let's meet at our old favorite place in an hour.
I reply back to agree and put my phone on the charger while I go get ready. I strip of the few articles of clothing on my body and hop into the shower as the already-warm water hits my cold body. The scent of Luke's body wash is still very distinct in the air; I breathe it in and feel as if he is right beside me. I long for his arms to be around me, for even the hot water could not compare to his warmth. I shake the feeling and wash myself. I will see him in a little while, doing what he does best.
After drying off, I dig through my suitcase and pull out my black skinny jeans and an All Time Low t-shirt. I pull the clothes over my mostly dry body and walk back into the bathroom to do my makeup. I go full out with mascara and wings, wanting to look my best in order to get the most out of Ben.
I hadn't bothered to look on any social media. I knew there was probably tons of articles having to do with me, the boys, and Linley, and I didn't want to deal with reading them right now. I'm not really sure what I'm going to say when I get Ben to tell me that it was all his fault, but I know that it's not going to be pretty. I just don't understand why he had to throw our friendship away for all of this. I also don't get why he thinks I'm stupid enough to not know that it was him that caused this mess.
As I feel myself tense up, I force myself to calm down. I can take it out on him only moments from now.
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I stand in the large lobby as I await the driver to come pick me up. When I finally see our usual SUV, I walk out the doors and take in the warm, fresh air. As I get into the car, I let the kind man know where to take me. It only takes about ten minutes to get to the small cafe and I take a deep breath before thanking him and stepping out of the car.
Staring up at the worn out sign brings back memories, good memories with Ben that I miss dearly. This was our place. We would come here every day after school and do homework or just talk about life. It's a shame that I am here to tell him how much of an ass he is. It makes me cringe how different things are.
