Song for the chapter: These Are The Lies by The Cab
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It's finally here, the day that I've been dreading for the past few months but hoped would never come. It's Friday and tonight I would be seeing my best friends and ex-boyfriend for the first time in over four months. I was completely exhausted from the lack of sleep I had gotten the last few nights and I could barely pay attention in school. I tried to think of anything but tonight, but my mind repeatedly went back to it. I honestly didn't know if I felt more excited or nervous.
It's just Luke, I try to tell myself over and over again. But that's exactly what was bothering me, it was Luke. It's only the boy that I had fallen head over heels in love with, the boy that tore my heart to shreds and watched calmly as I crumbled at his feet.
It's just Luke, no big deal right?
I had been in a bad mood all day and Nathan has constantly been getting on my nerves. I don't know why I'm getting so annoyed with him, but all I wanted to do was avoid him, even though I couldn't. Sometimes I feel bad for being rude to him but other times I don't, I didn't know what was wrong with me. I just wanted to get today and the rest of the weekend over with. I swear this was going to be the longest three days of my life.
After lunch, I walk with Linley instead of Nathan. I had pretty much ignored him during all of lunch without meaning to. He gets the hint and walks with Peter.
"Sooo the boys wanna hang out with us before the show tonight," she says as we walk down the hallway. I'm glad that she waited to tell me when Nathan wasn't around, if he asked me if I wanted him to go one more time I might have lost it right then and there. I didn't expect to see the boys before the concert, but I shouldn't be surprised.
"Is he gonna be there?" I ask.
"I'm not sure, but probably not," she responds with an attempted smile.
"Do you know if he knows that I'm coming?" I ask quietly.
"I don't know. Michael hasn't really said anything about him." We stop at my locker so that I can get some books before heading to the next class. "If you don't want to, we don't have to," she says sadly.
"No, we can. I want to see them. Might as well see him before the actual concert, right? It might be better," I try to convince her that I'll be okay, but I'm not so sure myself.
"Okay. Well we can just get ready at your house after school then they said to go to the venue at like 6, is that okay?" She asks as we begin to walk again.
"Sounds good. The show starts at 7:30, right?" I ask her.
"Yep. I'll see you after class, okay?" She yells as she walks into her classroom. I walk to my class alone and feel sick.
Less than four hours left.
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When school lets out, Lin and I go straight to my house to get ready. She had brought everything she needed so she didn't need to go home, I had a feeling that she had known for a while that the boys wanted to hang out before the show.
Linley spends hours curling my hair, that is now past my butt, and doing our makeup while I attempt to mentally prepare myself for tonight. She knew I was stressing and tried to calm me down on multiple occasions, but I don't let her know that it's not working. I just wanted a good night with my friends; a night without Luke.
As she finishes with the two of us, we check ourselves out in the mirror one last time. She did make me look really great and part of me hoped that Luke could see for just a split second. She looked fantastic as usual and I took a few deep breaths before we headed out the door. Luckily my mom and Troy were going on a date so she wouldn't see my revealing outfit.
