When the lights come up, I lose my breath at the first sight of him. He looks the same, yet so different; older and even more beautiful than I could ever imagine.
It takes me a minute to notice the sound of guitars and screaming girls around me. I recognize the song as 18, which is one of the songs they played at the very first party I went to. As soon as Luke started singing, goosebumps filled my body. He had gotten so much better, which I never knew was possible. He sounded amazing, they were all incredible. I tried to block out the thoughts of him and before I knew it, I was singing along with every other girl.
Most songs that they played, I had already heard before. But there were a couple of songs that I didn't know and I loved them even more. After a while, they started to play another unfamiliar one. It was slow and calmed the crowd down a little. It was dead quiet when Calum began to sing the first verse.
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss how it felt, the way you tasted
The words put a bad feeling in my stomach and when Luke begins to sing the chorus, the tears come down unexpectedly and hard.
I remember the day you told me you were leavin, I remember the makeup running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them, like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, and forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you, and the memories I never can escape
Cause I'm not fine at all
The words sting me right in the heart, making every feeling and memory of Luke that I have suppressed rush back to me all at once. The lyrics basically explained everything I had felt since he left and it almost sounded like what had actually happened, but it was ironic since Luke was the one that left. I wipe as much of the tears away that I can, hoping that I don't smear my makeup too much. Linley knows what the song is doing to me and wraps her arms tightly around me as she sways us back and forth to the song.
It felt like it was never ending. Their voices harmonized together so well and they made the song absolutely beautiful. This was probably their best song yet. As Luke sings the next part, I keep the tears back as much as I can but I'm not sure I can do it much longer.
If today I woke up with you right beside me, like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away, and you'd never hear me say
His voice was so beautiful that it made me physically ill. He continued on to sing the chorus and my heart continued to beat as loud as the drums. I wish I could take my eyes off of him, but I couldn't.
That's when I felt the most pain, as his eyes met my own. The deep, blue eyes were staring right through me, dragging me down with them all over again. He suddenly stopped singing and playing his guitar. Calum and Michael continued to sing, but looked back and forth between each other and Luke in confusion. When the song finally ends, Luke breaks our contact and shakes out of his trance.
"Sorry bout that guys, I forgot the lyrics for a minute," he says into the microphone with a nervous laugh.
Little does he know that the moment his eyes found mine, the world stopped spinning.
The rest of the night goes by quicker than it had been as the boys sing a mixture of songs that make us laugh and sing along, and others that make me depressed all over again. I couldn't handle the variety of feelings that were rushing through my body.
I was sad but also relieved when they finished their set. One Direction came on shortly after them and they were absolutely amazing. I don't know why I've never listened to them, but I will from now on. Louis found me in the crowd and throughout the night sent a couple of smiles and winks my way. There was one question that I found myself asking the whole time: why did they all have to be so attractive?
When the concert finally ends, Linley tells me that the boys are going to a club with One Direction and they want us to join them. After the moment that I had with Luke, I didn't think I could handle seeing him up close. But I did want to hang out with the guys. I just pray that Luke doesn't go.
After One Direction started singing and from then on, I had been feeling better. The concert was actually really fun, besides having to see Luke, and I couldn't wait to go again tomorrow. The ride to the club consisted of singing along to Panic! At The Disco songs with Lin and for some reason I was in a really good mood.
We had never gone to any clubs while I've been here and I wasn't really sure why since we were legally able to buy alcohol. I guess everybody just preferred parties. But now that the boys are famous, they probably want to be in a more private setting.
When we arrived, Michael had sent their manager to let us inside. There was a huge line to get in and I was glad that we didn't have to stand out in it, especially since it was starting to get a little cold and I had barely any clothing on. The club was extremely loud and dark besides the different colored lights flashing from above. It was pretty crowded and I didn't know how the rest of the people waiting outside were going to be able to fit in here. We were lead to the bar where the guys were sitting. A feeling of relief washed over me when I noticed that Luke was missing. We were attacked with hugs all over again and the warm feeling that I had felt earlier returned.
A few minutes later, I heard Louis' voice from behind me. I turned around to find him and the four other members of his band.
"You were so great!" I exclaimed as I hugged him.
"Thank you, it really means a lot. Let me introduce you to my band," he says when he pulls away. "This is Harry, Liam, Niall and Zayn." I shake their hands and receive hellos from each of them. They were all very sweet and talked to me for a while before some of them disappeared or started talking to Calum and Ashton, leaving Louis and I standing alone. "Why don't you have a drink?" He asks.
"Just haven't gotten one," I say back.
"What do you want? It's on me," he says with a smile.
"Oh no, you don't have to do that," I try to stop him.
"It's okay, I want to." I give in as I tell him what I want and he orders for me.
"So, are you planning on coming to see your father at all while you're here?" I ask before taking a sip of the delicious cocktail.
"I wasn't planning on it, but I might stop in to see you," he says with a wink.
Just as I am about to say something, my mind goes completely blank. The words are stuck in my throat as I see the familiar blonde hair coming straight towards us.
