Almost Stepbrother

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty

The house was a bit run down, it needed some work, the barn itself was barely holding on. If the wind blew just a little it would probably topple over.

Alec was walking in the opposite direction of the house and towards the unstable barn.

"Alec are you sure it's a good idea to be going over there? It doesn't look very stable!" I called out trying to catch up to him.

"Trust me, I've been here and it's done just fine," Alec wasn't slowing down for me to let me catch up.

He was in the barn before I was and I heard horses which spooked me and made me stop for a second before Alec turned around and motioned me to come over still.

"I didn't know you had horses," I commented walking closer to him than the horse stalls.

"I don't have horses, my mom has horses. She takes care of the sick ones, or the ones who are hurt. She has two of her own though," Alec walked towards the last two stalls and I followed but hid more behind him.

I never exactly saw a horse in real life, my dad and mom just never took me anywhere with animals really. They were always busy and we cooked more than went out anywhere really.

"Come here," he held out his hand waiting for me to take it.

I looked at him and then the big four legged giant next to him. He must've known because of how much fear was written across my face.

"Do they bite?" I hesitantly asked, still wondering if I even should give him my hand.

"Do you think I'd put you in a situation like that?" he asked out loud and I realized how much he was right.

"Alec that thing's huge," I stepped back and knew Alec was going to push.

"I won't let anything bad happen to you, I promise," Alec never had broken any promises to me, unlike me who broke all of them.

"Okay," I took his hand and he led my own hand to the horse's face.

"Alec," I shrieked as I got closer.

"Breathe Kallie, your okay I promise," I realized how close we were then and I somehow forgot how to breathe.

I felt the horse breathe as I felt the rough hairs on the horses face come into contact with my hand.

"Not bad huh?" he asked but his voice was low and I still was struggling to breathe. I closed my eyes trying to pretend that it was just me and the horse but I knew Alec was there, I felt his body heat behind me, his watchful eyes. Even when I tried to pretend, my body doesn't allow me and it reacts the way it always had around him. 

I ended up shaking my head no like it was enough for him to understand, but knowing Alec he'd push me just to speak. But instead, he didn't push for a verbal response and accepted the head shake as an actual answer.

"How long has your mom had horses?" I asked then and removed my hand off the horse.

"After my mom and dad divorced she went on a hunt for a horse ranch, that's where she met her boyfriend and now we're here."

His answer was short and sweet and I knew that he never liked talking about his mom, even when we hung out he'd always push that topic aside like it was meant to be left unsaid. I should've known today would be no different.

"Alec," I wanted to push him into telling me more, but it was never my place to push him and it would never be my place to push him. All of this was wrong, my feelings for him were wrong, the way I looked at him was wrong. I shouldn't be spending as much time as I do with him. Our parents are engaged and we shouldn't be resetting back the time. Maybe it's less of a we and more of a me. I need to let him go and stop chasing after him.