Almost Stepbrother

Chapter Forty

Chapter Forty

We somehow had stumbled into his bedroom and Alec had not separated from my lips, he was hungry as if I had starved him for way too long, "Do you wanna do this," he pulled away breathless as he looked at me.

I nodded silent and partly out of it because I forgot how much I missed this close proximity with him, how much time I had lost because I was stuck caring about everyone else.

"Kailen a nod doesn't do justice for me," he pushed back a strand of my hair.

"Yes I want to do this Alec," I looked up at him and he kissed me again before picking me up and laying me down on his bed, he kissed down my neck before biting on my skin gently and my hands went through his hair as I bit onto my bottom lip missing his touch and kisses. My toes curled against his blanket laid down on his bed. His bed was actually made which surprised me knowing he never made time for it before.

"You must have been bored since you made your bed," I said breathless.

Alec laughed against my skin, "I'm kissing you and you have enough time to talk about the fact that I made my bed?" he pulled away and I smiled.

"Sorry," I knew my cheeks were bright red and Alec kissed my lips again while his hands grabbed the bottom of my shirt and his fingers traced up my skin before brushings against my bra, he parted and then kissed my stomach before following in pursuit of where his fingers once traced.

I grabbed his hands where they lingered and he continued to kiss before landing against my breasts, "Alec," my breath was shaky because the reminder who once had done the same to me came back instead he was not as nice.

"What babe?" Alec was still kissing and lightly sucking.

"Stop, please," I begged, the fear now coated my voice and I felt his lips remove themselves from my skin. I shut my eyes and my breath had quickened and I couldn't stop his voice flooding my mind, his touch stained my skin.

"Kailen, open your eyes. Look at me, I'm right here," he brushed his hands across my cheeks.

My eyes fluttered open and I looked into his eyes and found myself calming down, "I'm sorry," I felt so bad. I once could do this. I once could go through with anything because this took the pain away but now. This too was filled with pain, "I'm sorry I couldn't," I choked on my own tears and I wanted to hide again so I hugged him so he wouldn't have to see me break down again in the same room we once had broken down together.

"Don't apologize, it's okay really. Just tell me what happened, you told me you were okay with this but then suddenly you weren't. Talk to me please," he pulled away and wiped a tear falling fast down my cheek.

"No, please don't make me talk about it. I can't, Alec I can't do it," I started crying again.

"Shhh, I have you, I won't let anything happen. Please just talk to me, tell me what happened so I can fix it," he pulled me into his arms.

"It hurts, I can't. It hurts too much," my hands were shaking and Alec tilted my head up to him.

"Is it something someone else did to you?" he asked me.

"What time is it? I can't be late going home Alec," I sniffled trying to wipe away the tears still streaming.

"No, don't worry about that right now. If I have to I'll take the blame. Stop trying to run and talk to me Kailen," he grabbed my arm and pulled me back into him, "Please, baby," he rested his forehead against mine.

"I don't want to talk about it Alec. You should know not to push out of anyone," I pulled my shirt down before leaving his room to find Pickles asleep outside the door. I picked her up and walked downstairs to find my shoes at the door.