DIET MOUNTAIN DEW. dave grohl (1)

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OCTOBER 29th, 1990
NORWICH ENGLAND

After Dave's first couple shows in Nirvana. There was a change in his over all attitude. Now, I couldn't describe it to save my life. But, something was different about him. He seemed happier, but in a weird, shy way. Tomorrow we'd be heading back to Seattle for a show there. Unfortunately, I'd have to stay back home while Dave went to Canada. But, I can't complain too much, ya know. It was my choice. All the flying and moving was getting to my head and I needed a change.

After he gets back to America, they're doing more shows in California, and I think I should be able to tag along then. But, for now, I needed a break. I was sad to leave Dave, sure. But I couldn't stay at a different hotel every night. I was on my toes all the time and it wore me out.

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"I'm gonna miss you." Dave sadly hung his head at the entrance to my apartment. Of course time flies like crazy. Dave was already leaving. I thought it would be a good idea but, now I'm not so sure.

"Oh, me too." I said standing on my tippy toes and hugging him tightly. I didn't want to leave him all by himself for 4 months. But it was for the best, I guess. Of course I'd call him everyday.

"It's 7:30, Dave. You have to go now." I said wanting to sob right then and there. I was so sad and loneliness was already creeping into me. Dave sighed heavily, placing a kiss on my forehead.

"I love you." He said before heading for the elevator. I smiled back to him before saying it back. Once the doors on the elevator shut. I felt so empty. Something was missing, and I felt like leaving him by himself was a big mistake. I don't know why but something bad was about to happen I just know it.

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March 4th, 1990
SEATTLE WASHINTON

It's been over 2 months since Dave left and honestly I haven't been the same. Every day I did the same thing. Woke up, went to the plant center, took a nap, and went to work. It was like that movie Groundhog Day. Life was boring without Dave. It really was, and I missed him so much. I used to call him every night until he didn't answer. I couldn't help but think something was wrong. He'd never ignore my calls.

So, I decided to call Kurt instead.

"Hello?" His voice mumbled on the other line.

"Hi, Kurt, it's Dani. Look, I was just wondering if Dave was near by?" I asked twirling the phone line around my index finger. He sighed on the other line, making me sick.

"Um, Dani. I'm gonna tell you something and you can't tell anyone I told you." Kurts words brought an uneasy feeling inside me. I shifted uncomfortably, sticking my hip out.

"Okay." I stuttered to say as my anticipation grew bigger. Another heavy sigh sounded.

"Dave.... well, Dave hasn't really been himself lately. I think he misses you, I really do. But, I saw him go into his hotel room with this girl last night. I don't know who it was or what she looked like, or what they did. Dani, I'm sorry." Kurt rambled from the other line. I wanted to throw up. I wanted to sob. He's not cheating on my is he? Dave would never do that.....

"Did he say anything to her? Wh- what happened?" I quivered my lip.

"I don't know. All I saw was a girl in a black dress with long blonde hair. He opened his door and let her in." Kurt explained. I felt the tears seeping down my cheeks and onto my shirt. I couldn't keep it together, he was cheating on me wasn't he.

"K-Kurt. C-can you just please tell him to call me. Please, and if he doesn't. Make him." I said without wanting to cry. I was failing, and trying to suck it up.

"Alright, I will. I'm sorry, again." Kurt apologized with sadness. I shook my head before holding it in my hands and hung the phone up. He couldn't be cheating on me. Dave wouldn't do that in a lifetime.....

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All day, I called Dave's hotel phone. And every-time I never got an answer. I wasn't playing around anymore. If he's sneaking around with some girl than fuck him. It was near 7 in the evening and he still hadn't answered. I called at least 14 times. And finally I got an answer.

"Hello?" Dave asked in a tired voice. I closed my eyes at his voice. Thinking about what Kurt said.

"Hi, Dave." My voice cracked.

"Oh, Dani. Hi!" Dave said casually. I scoffed pulling the phone away from my ear. I wanted to die right here and then.

"What have you been up to?" I asked sadly.

"Nothing. Just shows and shit. What's wrong?" Dave was concerned. Those words made me angry to my core. He couldn't know what was wrong but god I wanted to tell him.

"Nothing. You meet anyone cool?"

"No.... everyone's boring here." Dave laughed.

"Yeah, okay, Dave." I mumbled looking out the window, not watching what I said to him.

"What's that supposed to mean? Look, I'm coming back to Seattle in June.... and—" Dave started. I couldn't even speak to him. I felt like I hated him. I didn't even know if wha Kurt was saying was true.

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Dave's POV:

I was on the phone with Dani. She seemed off, and it made me nervous. I've never done this to anyone in my life. How could she possibly know about Dana? She's this girl I met at a bar, and one thing lead to another. How did she....?

"Dave don't. I know about your little girl toy, okay?" Danielle snapped with a cool tone. She's never snapped at me like this before and it made me shiver. I cleared my throat trying to think up an answer.

"Look, Dana is just a girl—" I started but was instantly cut off, "oh, Dana? So it is true? You did sleep with her?" Danielle said on the verge of tears. I couldn't lie to her anymore.

"Yes, but hear me out....." the phone went dead and I was left with the dial tone. Fuck, I fucked up bad this time. Really fucking bad. Of course, I wish I could take everything back. I wish I never went to that stupid bar and I wish I never slept with Dana. I didn't know what to do. It was only March and I couldn't get back to Washington until June. That's at least 3 months at the least.

I was torn. I was really drawn to Dana, but I mean I love Danielle. She's my one and only, but maybe Dana was my one..... oh, fuck Dave how could you think that?! I looked beside me to see Dana sleeping soundly in one of my t-shirts next to me. I sighed at her beautiful face and for some reason I forgot all about Dani in that moment. Was I really falling for someone else?