DIET MOUNTAIN DEW. dave grohl (1)

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September 9th, 1992
LOS ANGELES CALIFORNIA

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"I'm so nervous, Dave." I said as I heard and saw the flashing of cameras. I didn't want to be seen as a different person than I am. I just wanted people to like me and I know that if I was shown to people some wouldn't like me.

"Don't be. Just smile and stuff." Dave said with a laugh as he continued to hold Charlie. I took a deep breath before stepping into the eyes of the public and press seeing many flashes once again. I didn't pay any attention to them as I just smiled and looked over at Kurt and Courtney. I tried copying what they did.

"Can we get one of Charlie and Dani?" I heard someone say. Jesus, people knew my name already. Dave handed me Charlie quickly as a few pictures were snapped; I was beginning to get sick of this already. And I finally ventured over to Courtney and began posing with her as I way to calm down a bit.

"I'm freaking out." I said through my forced smile.

"Me too." She giggled back still looking at the cameras. I hated being here but seeing Dave smile and laugh with everyone just made it worth it. I didn't know why people would want a picture of me anyways... I didn't have any real role in all of this. I was just... this girl. This went on for a good hour of me just standing with different people and holding Charlie close to me. He looked around with a sweet little smile the whole time.

"Are you guys ready for the awards?" Everyone nodded as we were directed to the venue in which we'd sit and wait to see who would win best alternative video. I was a little nervous... if they didn't win I'm sure Dave would be crushed and I couldn't help but feel bad.

Once again, like every other time. Me and Courtney along with Shelli sat side stage. Courtney was with Frances and I was with Charlie. But Shelli held Charlie for a couple minutes. She hadn't had the chance to see much of him. So, I just sat and waited out my final alone time. I didn't have much of a want for alcohol anymore... since I didn't get out much to begin with.

So, I honestly just waited and waited until the boys were done playing and I could finally wait and see if they'd win... and I hoped to god they would. They've all worked so hard and done so well it would be such a shame if they didn't. Of course the network tells them if they win or not but none of them have told me. So if anything I was the only anxious one.

I was so proud of Dave honestly.... he had worked so hard and he honestly impressed me from day one. I loved him more than anything... and he gave me one of the most beautiful little things ever. Without Dave I wouldn't have the love I had for Charlie. I loved that thing so much you didn't even know. No one who hasn't had a baby can't even begin to explain the feeling you have when that baby is held in your arms. It's beautiful and really changed the aspect of the universe.

God, I was so lucky.

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"God, that was exhausting." I sighed collapsing on the couch after we finally got back home after 4 days in California. I was so tired and just worn out that if my head hit anything soft I'd fall asleep.

"I know," Dave sighed heavily, "isn't it hard to believe that you actually have a son, now?" Dave brought up out of no where.

"I don't know. Not really... why is something wrong?" I asked him as Charlie played with some of his toys off to the side.

"No! Nothing at all, I just can't believe it. I mean that thing is mine..." he said looking at Charlie with absolute love and those adorable eyes of his. I could tell Dave really did love Charlie maybe even more than me...

"Well, I'm gonna head to bed. You'll be okay with him?" I asked walking up the steps.

"Yes I will." Dave picked him up and held him in his lap slowly reclining on the couch a bit. I smiled softly just falling deeper in love with the two of them... I then entered the bedroom and slipped under the covers feeling the best I've felt in a long time.