Short Lived First Love (GL) MTL

02.1

Fanwai 2: Jiang Siyu

is another dream.

In the dream, Jiang Yi led her to walk through the dark maze. They were like two hamsters being dropped into a black box, running wildly along the place with light.

A huge shadow followed them, like an absurd monster of fate chasing them until it drove them into the abyss of darkness. She followed Jiang Yi and watched her figure be swallowed by darkness bit by bit, all screams were blocked in her throat.

"Jiang Yi...Jiang Yi...Don't...Jiang Yi!"

Amidst a horrified cry, Jiang Siji woke up from his dream. She sat up from the bed with her head in her arms, in the dark like a wounded little beast, hugged herself tightly, and whispered unconsciously: "Jiang Yi..."

The air-conditioning in the room was very full. , But she seemed to be in a stove, her whole body was soaked. The cold sweat stuck to her body and made her feel uncomfortable. Jiang Siji stretched out his hand, pushed his sweaty forehead to the back of his head, and after a while he got up, walked into the bathroom in the dark.

Turning on the bathroom light with a click, Jiang Sihao walked into the shower, turned on the faucet, and let the cold water flow from the top of the hair to the toes.

The cold water brought her consciousness back to the cage a little bit, she closed her eyes, and suddenly remembered the events of that day in her mind. She actually didn't remember the weather that night. It didn't matter if it was a starry night or a moonlit night, or a dark night.

She only remembered that Jiang Yi's hands were warm that night, her back was solid, and her pheromone smelled very well.

Just thinking of these things, Jiang Siyu felt that her stomach was cramping, she had to put her hands on the wall, and retched silently in the rushing water.

Once again uncomfortable with acid reflux, Jiang Siyu had to bend down and squat on the ground, and continued to retching for a while before she got out of this embarrassment.

After suffering from the stomach for a long time, Jiang Si Ha squatted on the ground, washed away the tears on his face under the water, and took a light breath for a while and stood up from the ground.

She turned off the water, dried her body and walked out of the bathroom, wrapped in a bathrobe, to the mirror on the sink.

The person in the mirror stared at his wet, messy hair, his face was pale and the corners of his eyes were flushed, he looked like a ghost. Jiang Siji tilted his head and looked at himself in front of the mirror, not knowing why he smiled.

She thought, what would Jiang Yi say if she saw herself like this?

Is it too disgusting to complain about her? Still feel distressed?

Thinking of this, the smile at the corner of Jiang Si's mouth suddenly disappeared. It has been five years, and Jiang Yi has been away for five years. No matter how much she deceives herself, she should understand that the person who left may never return.

Every time, this thought came up in her heart, and she couldn't wait to die.

But Jiang Siji knew that he couldn't die. Because the current self was switched back by Jiang Yi, she couldn't just waste her life so easily.

But being alive is too painful.

When will she be relieved from such pain?

After drying his hair, Jiang Siqi lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling blankly, unable to sleep. In fact, since Jiang Yi left, she has hardly been able to sleep well one night without the help of drugs.

Even with the help of drugs, she would wake up from the nightmare. So repeatedly, I opened my eyes until dawn.

She tossed about on the bed for a long time, it was really hard to fall asleep, so she got up, picked up the sleeping pill by the bed, and poured one in her hand.

While pouring the sleeping pills, Jiang Siyu suddenly had a thought: If she eats this whole bottle of sleeping pills, will she be able to see Jiang Yi?

When this idea emerged, Jiang Siyu couldn't help but smile. She thought she was really hopeless, otherwise how could she have thought of such an absurd thing.

She doesn't know if she can see Jiang Yi if she swallows this whole bottle of sleeping pills, but her mother who will come to see the doctor with her tomorrow, if she sees her lying in bed and can't wake up again, she will definitely cry. .

Thinking of this, Jiang Siji sighed. When she swallowed the sleeping pills, and the bitter smell spread in her mouth, she couldn't help thinking that she was actually quite a cowardly person.

I didn't really want to live, but I didn't dare to die. All the happiness seemed to leave her.

Perhaps this is the price of growth.

After taking the medicine, Jiang Siji lay on the bed, and it took a long time to close his drowsy eyes.

Maybe it was just a moment, or maybe it was a long time later, when the alarm clock by the pillow rang, Jiang Siji got up vaguely from the bed, and after washing, he covered his red and swollen eyes with makeup, and waited for Ning Wenyin to come. Went to the hospital with her.

On the way to the hospital, Ning Wenyin asked about her recent life, and Jiang Siyu said one by one. She knew that her mother was worried, so she took her hand and acted like a baby: "Don't worry, the last time I was diagnosed, isn't it much better already."

"Look at how well I manage the company, what else can happen? "

Ning Wenyin felt a pain in her heart as she looked at her smiling face. She stretched out her hand and rubbed Jiang Sirai's head and said, "If you are as good as you said, I don't need to worry."

"Haila, you can't always handle work, you...you have to go out with some friends." Have fun, relax and make more friends."

Jiang Sisha smiled: "Mom, I went out with friends. Look at me, don't you go to the racecourse with people every week."

Ning Wenyin sighed: "But you are talking about business with people, you know what I mean."

"You..."

Ning Wenyin was halfway through, and suddenly she could n't go on. Jiang Sihai took her hand and comforted her and said, "I know what my mother is talking about, but my mother also knows that I don't like the smell of alpha."

"Until now, I am still not comfortable with being with other people. , I'm still scared."

"But it's okay, mom...I'm already much better. You see, I'm not doing my job well and taking good care of myself. Although it's still a little uncomfortable, I still can't let it go, but I I will learn to look forward."

"Mom, I will let her go."

Ning Wenyin looked at her daughter like this, only feeling very uncomfortable in her heart. Her hand stroked the river like sleet hair, softly comfort her: ".. I do not necessarily want you to put her down, but it does not matter sleet sleet does not fit, you need to have your own life, take care of yourself,"

"people always It's looking forward, you look... I haven't been staring at you for a while, and you have lost so much."

Jiang Siyu showed a pleasing smile, and she blinked at Ning Wenyin: "Because I have been working too hard recently.

Are you busy." Jiang Siyu took Ning Wenyin's hand and clasped her fingers: "By the way, mom, didn't you and Aunt Qionghua say that you will go skiing in the southern hemisphere in July, how are you preparing now? "

Ning Wenyin smiled and answered her: "It's ready."

Jiang Si grinned and curled his eyes: "Then this time, do you want to think about getting pregnant or something like that."

"Aunt Qionghua, that's just one ." Child. I also hope that my mother can have another child so that I will have my own sister. If my mother wants to go, I will have a child this time."

Ning Wenyin was taken aback and looked at Jiang very seriously. Xi Hao: "Does Hao really want a sister?"

Jiang Siji nodded: "Well, I really want it." If there is a younger sister to help her to distract her mother, it will be easier for her to leave someday. Because she felt that she really couldn't keep going.

The strong aura of destruction eroded her heart, and as she grew older, it seemed that even her soul was corroded, so that the vitality gradually disappeared.

The most terrifying thing is not that you don't know that you are corroded, but that you know that you are corroded, but refuse to save yourself, even pretending to be a normal person, and stepping deeper into the abyss.

When facing the psychiatrist, Jiang Si Haoqiang beat the spirit of 120,000 points. She has been familiar with many psychology books and has her own way of dealing with doctors. Although her heart was broken, what was presented to the doctor was indeed a scarred, but gradually reborn soul.

The doctors gave her a good diagnosis. Although Jiang Xixi had been cruelly tortured in her heart, she does have a tendency to heal herself.

The doctor felt that she could stop using psychoactive drugs on her, and just take care of her body.

Ning Wenyin breathed a sigh of relief after learning the result. On the way back, Ning Wenyin had a rare smile on her face. Jiang Siji couldn't help but laughed, and took her hand and said to her: "Look, mom, I said it's

okay ." How could something happen to her. She just lived a very painful life, but she didn't want to die very much. Because death will end everything. But now she hasn't thought of leaving this world.

Ning Wenyin sighed and said to her: "It's fine if you're okay."

Then he told Jiang Siyu to take good care of herself. Jiang Sidai agreed one by one, and then asked the driver to drive and send Ning Wenyin back to Jiang's villa.

Because Jiang Sixi had a meeting in the evening, she asked the driver to drive back to the company. Passing a crossroad on the road, when waiting for the traffic light, Jiang Siji leaned against the window and saw a group of middle school students wearing white shirts and black suits and trousers crossing the road in droves, and his expression suddenly became trance.

Not knowing why, she thought of Jiang Yi again.

If Jiang Yi is still there...

once this idea arises, it will be difficult to suppress it. Jiang Sihai lay down at the window, watching the group of middle school students chirping across the road, waiting for the car lights to turn green, and when the driver passed the intersection, he said: "Bring the car to the side of the road and don't go to the company. Now."

She doesn't want to have a meeting anymore, she wants to find Jiang Yi.

Thinking about this, Jiang Siji told the driver to get out of the car and drive to the outskirts by herself.

On the way, she called the assistant and cancelled the evening meeting.

When Jiang Siyu drove the car to the fork in the mountain, the setting sun was going down the mountain. She stopped the car, jumped on it, sat on the hood in front of her, holding her knees and watching the sun sinking ahead.

At this time, the evening breeze was blowing gently over Jiang Si Ha's ear. She looked into the distance and sensed a hint of coolness for no reason. After a while, she turned around, looked at the faint green bushes, and said softly: "Hey...Jiang Yi, may I go to you."

At this time, a night breeze hits. , The leaves rustled in the mountains and forests, as if that was Jiang Yi's answer: "No."

Jiang Siji couldn't help but feel a little discouraged. She put her chin on her knees, tears gleaming in her eyes: "Yes. Ah, you always say no to me."

"You can't be close to you, you can't be in contact with you, you can't smell your pheromone, you can't..."

"Like you..."

"I hate it. I hate you so much."

"You are always lying to me. I hate that I am lying to me. If you don't like me, you are lying to me. If you don't love me, you are lying to me..."

"Let me wait for you, you are lying to me. .

You're lying to me..." "You're a nasty ghost, Jiang Yi."

Jiang Sixi's voice gradually became crying, she buried her face between her arms and murmured: "But What to do, Jiang Yi...I miss you so much."

The evening breeze sent her whisper far away, but it would not send it to a place she wanted to go.

Jiang Siji squatted on the car, listening to the rustling rustling from the forest, and remembering the breath that had long since dissipated in the room, tears burst out: "It's almost six years, Jiang Yi..."

"Am I forever? I can't wait for you."

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