Secret Sender • Joshua ✓

Secret Sender || 64

[ - sophia kim - ]

I went back to my class to see Seungkwan and Hansol are back from helping out our teacher earlier. I was relieved upon seeing them. I really wanted to cry out everything because it has been hard for me for the past 3 days. But none of us had the time to give each other some of our time...

I went back to my seat without saying a word as I rested my head onto my arm. Feeling stressed and exhausted.

I wanted to cry, to let it all out. Everything is just so hard and complicated for me.

Both of them didn't approach me either. I guess they're just giving me space. After all they've scolded me earlier morning and probably felt guilty over it.

They were just worried, so I understood why they scolded me earlier. They were right though. I gotta stand up for myself. No matter how hard it is, I gotta stop being a doormat.

I guess, I have to try and get out of my comfort zone too. I probably need some help on that and I can always depend on these two. Maybe in the future I'd be able to depend on those boys too. Especially Joshua.

I'm just fascinated on how we're suddenly close. Like it was really out of nowhere. Before I know it, we're now living under the same roof for the time being.

Crazy, I know.

Though, I'm not complaining. Everything happened for a reason and I don't wanna question it. After all, it's what I've been wanting right ? Being a friend of his. After years of admiring him, you're finally becoming friends with him. What else can you ask for ?

Though... There are a lot of risks and consequences....

If this is only the beginning, I don't know what is awaiting for me in the future...

I hope, it's not going to be THAT bad