Secret Sender • Joshua ✓

Secret Sender || 66

[ - sophia kim - ]

A few more days left before he went back to his house. He promised his mother for a month only and luckily he has been doing well staying at my place.

Though... I'd miss his company though. I live like an only child. My siblings are away and my parents are really busy. Having him around made me feel happy.

I want to spend more time with him... To get to know him well...

After all this time, I've been staying in my comfort zone. I want to try, getting out of it even for a short time...

But how exactly...?

I wanna ask him out for a hangout but... Would he even accept it...?

I slapped myself

Stop.

Don't question it anymore.

I stood up and walked out of my room. Feeling nervous and anxious, I went up to the room he's staying in and knocked onto the door

"Cominggggg" I heard him replying from the inside.

Not too long after that, the door opened

"Oh Sophia ? Why are you here ?" He asked with a smile

My heart was beating so fast, words couldn't seem to come out of my mouth. I was getting a panic attack out of nowhere. My head was automatically facing down.

Why now ?

"Sophia ? Is everything alright ?" He asked, as he got closer to me, wanting to check.

"Sophia ? Are you having another panic attack ?" He asked and I nodded slowly

My breathing got shorter and shorter. This happened out of nowhere...

"Let's get you to rest first, then we'll talk okay ?" He brought me into the room he's staying in and sat me down on the bed

"Try relaxing first. Breathe in, breathe out" he commanded, and I did as he said

After a while, I've finally calmed down and could breathe properly now. What the hell was that for ? Panic attack out of nowhere ?

Weird...

"Feeling better ?" He asked

"Y-yeah... Thank you,,," I said as I clutched the left side of my chest.

I could still feel my heart's beating fast...

Is this nervousness or something else...?