Secret Sender • Joshua ✓

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[ - sophia kim - ]

I don't know why, but lately my feelings for him are growing. We've gotten really close and I kinda wished that this fake ass relationship is real. But yeah, not everything that you've wished for would come true.

I am just happy that we're the way we are now.

It has also been a while ever since I've sent him any letter though. But, is it even necessary ? I've been sending some letters before but, I've stopped ever since we've gotten closer.

I wonder if he have ever noticed it was me

Hope not because I wouldn't want him to view me as a stalker or something.

Put that aside, I could tell that he's seriously avoiding his own home at this point. Must've been hard for him huh ? Having such controlling parents. I wonder how he had to go through it when I'm not around.

I get really worried when it comes to him. Especially with his trauma with girls now. Sure we're close, but it's visible that he's really being cautious around everyone, even me.

I wasn't complaining of course. I would've been too if I was him.

Still wondering how he could be really patient with them. I would've probably snapped though if that happens for years.

Everyone there seemed to be... Annoyed that I'm there. But that doesn't stop me from tagging along with Joshua of course. I may be such a doormat and was labelled as "nice" but if it's like a few people, I wouldn't really mind.

Joshua's patience is unbelievable. Despite him being angry he wouldn't yell at them. He still talk to them nicely. Me on the other hand, I'd lose my temper. Sometimes I envied him.

Honestly he's just perfect in a lot of ways. Just how lucky am I to have such a guy in my life ?