Secret Sender • Joshua ✓

Secret Sender || 65

[ - sophia kim - ]

Well just like yesterday, people treated me kinda badly ? I don't know anymore. It's better to just ignore it. Sure it hurts hearing rumours about you and even insults, but I'd get used to it gradually.

At the end of the day, it was never my fault. It's never wrong for me to befriend these guys. They're also welcoming of me, so I don't have to be bothered by these stuffs.

Before I even know it, weeks have passed.

I got used to it. I didn't fight back though, I don't wanna get in trouble after all.

I'm still a scaredy cat that needs to cling onto my friends 24/7, but it was only because of social anxiety and nothing more. Plus, I feel safe around them.

Joshua's slowly recovering, but he's still being cautious around everyone. He's really attached to me though. Not complaining of course

He started to open up a lot to me, and I'm just grateful that he sees me as someone that he can trust with all of his heart. I began to trust him a lot too.

Seungkwan teased me a lot whenever I brought Joshua up. He was just being playful so I never mind

Though... I'm seriously questioning myself.

Am I really just admiring him...? Or have I fallen for him ? I'm confused... I'm always excited to see him or even strike a conversation with him. I just felt... Comfortable around him.

Maybe I'm just excited because he's starting to be a close friend of mine ? Or maybe it was because we just happened to understand each other really well ?

Odd....