I only go to you
When I'm lonely,
When I'm in despair;
I only go to you
When I have nobody
To spill my heart out to;
Because I know
You will always give me a helping hand
And yet,
There is guilt
Between each letter and each word,
Each line I utter,
Each line I speak,
Because I know that you think
You mean so much to me
And I want that to be true
And I so fervently wish
It was meant to be
Because I do not want to hurt you
But sometimes,
Just sometimes,
I feel like hurling a book
Towards your damn face
Because you don't seem to fully understand me...
And yet,
I somehow find comfort in that space
And I know that it's not your fault
For not really getting me
Because that is just you being you,
It's not like I can change
Who you are meant to be
And because of that
I myself want
To hurl a book at my own damn face
Because I also fully know
That I am simply just using you
For my own comfort,
For my own gain,
But I cannot seem to let you go
For you are the only safe space I have
And worst of all is that
When I get tired of you
I can simply just walk away
Without ever thinking twice,
Without ever looking back
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sunflowers by the sea
PoetryThe book 'sunflowers by the sea' is a compilation of poems I have written. It is about the wonders over the hardships as well as complications of the human life, where the highs and the lows, the dos and the don'ts, as well as the desperate hopes of...
