I'll Always Love You - A Romanogers Fanfic

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NATASHA'S POV

"You need to get rid of the emotions Natalia, they may be your sisters, but they're bad spies" madame B said furiously.
"Izvinite madame B" I said.
"Get back up!" Her Russian was even more terrifying than her English, and I got up again.

⚠️TW⚠️ — Mention of violence and blood

I held in tears as I with a sharp knife slit my friend's abdomen in the weekly fight between the two strongest girls in the facility, the same second she stabbed me in the shoulder.
"Natalia! Natalia! Natalia!" The other girls cheered from the side of the 'battlefield'
They had rooted for me every time since I was in the weekly fight for the first time, as I was the youngest who had ever been.
I went in and slid an x across her entire front which was the requirements to win and the blood kept squirting out of the deep cuts, she almost passe-..

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"Nat! Nat! Natasha!" I hear distantly from the real world. I'm screaming in despair after causing her these serious injuries, and grabs onto the person yelling at me.
I open my eyes panting. Every night one of the weekly fights returns in my nightmares.
"Slicing, cheering, stabbing, blood" I pant at the guy that's looking confused at me with his hands on my shoulders, and I grab the gun that's under my pillow.
"Steve?" I ask scared when I've realized it's him.
"Shh, I'm here, I'm here" he says calmly and sit down, slowly taking the gun away from me.
He strokes my arm and pull me in for a tight hug when my breathing doesn't slow down. I don't return the hug, but I lean close to his warm body and I feel my breathing slow down a bit.

He puts me back down and lie down next to me.
He covers us both with the bedsheet and pulls me close in a comforting hug.
He strokes my hair while I sob very softly so he doesn't hear it.
"I'm sorry Steve" I say quietly into his bare chest.
"Don't be Nat, don't be" he says and moves even closer, "go back to sleep, I'm right here, I'm staying" he says softly and kiss my hair.
As much as I hate to admit it, I'm glad that he's here comforting me.
"Go back to sleep yourself" I whisper to him.
He nods tiredly. "I will" he says, and I fall asleep with his arms still tightly holding me, and my face right up against his warm, muscular chest.

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STEVE'S POV

I'm still holding Natasha tightly, I don't want to let go. She's one of my best friends, and hearing her scream in pain like that made my heart ache.
I run my fingers through her red hair while thinking about what could possibly be so painful for her. I'm almost certain that it's something from her past in Russia, but I can't seem to figure out exactly what it is.

I rock her back and forth.
"I'm here, I'm here" I keep whispering to hopefully keep the nightmares away. She sighs and tucks her head closer to my chest.

After a while I can't hold it any longer and I fall asleep still holding her.