I'll Always Love You - A Romanogers Fanfic

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NATASHA'S POV

I'm sitting on Steve's lap, absentmindedly running my fingers through his hair with my eyes fixated on the piece of paper with our messy notes on it from earlier.
What Scott said...it kinda makes sense.

"I mean, it makes sense, doesn't it?" I ask Steve without moving my eyes from two words on the paper.

Before Thanos

He tightens his grip around my waist and kisses my shoulder.
"I honestly don't know, Love. He sounded convinced, but it's a realm the two of us haven't heard about" he says and looks at the paper as well.
"Steve, I know you're old, but think about just your life. You literally changed from being a sick stick of a man to being a muscle man who looks insanely hot in spandex" I say.
"Science" he argues.
"Okay, but you also survived being frozen for nearly 70 years" I continue.
"Science" he argues again with a head tilt.
"Stop using science as an argument! You've fought a purple idiot from outer space, and you've fought thousands of aliens. Steve, you have fought alongside an actual god, and a talking Raccoon!" I exclaim annoyed.
He looks at me, and I can see he's trying hard not to acknowledge that I'm right.
"Where are you getting at?" He asks with furrowed eyebrows.
I groan annoyed. "This is our chance to get them back, Steve!" I shout desperate. This is five years of struggle, maybe actually paying off, all thanks to Scott.

"I know. I know, I'm sorry. I'll do what I can...I'm just...I'm tired of fighting" he sighs after a while.
"You? Steve Rogers? Is tired of fighting?" I ask in disbelief.
"Yes. I am. We lost the last time. And I've made my peace with it. Even though I still miss them" he says.
"Then why have you made your peace with it? This is our chance to get everyone back!" I say, almost yell in frustration.
"Because if we lose again then chances are I'm going to lose you!" He yells, unintentionally loud. And something in his tone makes me go silent.

He looks down, stroking my arm gently. "Then I might lose you" he repeats quietly.
"What do you mean?" I ask and put my forehead to his as to get close to him without kissing him.
"If we go back in time, and Thanos snaps his fingers again...and you disappear...and I don't...it's too big of a risk for me to take..." he whispers.
"But what about everyone else?" I ask. I don't want to lose my temper, but his mindset is weird to me. There's a chance that he'll disappear as well and I won't, or we'll both disappear. The way I see it, doing something about this is a better idea.
"As I said...I've made my peace with it...even if they can be brought back...they've still been presumed dead for half a decade. That's another five years I got to love you" he says, and gives me a deep kiss, a kiss that feels like it's been coming for so long.

"But...what if I had disappeared in the first snap...would you have made your peace with it after half a decade?" I ask carefully when we've pulled away from the kiss. I know I wouldn't have made my peace with it if it was him, even less peace than I've made with this.
"No...I wouldn't have. I know it sounds selfish and mean that I've kind of given up on them, and I want to care, and I did love those I know, who disappeared. But none of them even comes close to how much I love you" he says, kissing me again, and as our lips meet, I can feel his tears on my face.

I slowly pull my head back, away from his lips, but making sure my hands are still on his cheeks, and my lips in just the distance from his so they don't meet.

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STEVE'S POV

Her warm breath is close to my face.
She looks into my eyes.
"You don't have to give up, Steve. We can get everyone back without losing each other. I'm sure of it. And then we marry and live together until we die" she says tenderly, even though 'die' might be a bit of a rough word.
"You promise?" I ask, almost crying even though I don't want to.
"I can't promise anything Steve. Neither can you. This is war. It's the Endgame" she whispers and kisses me, and she's crying now too.