I'll Always Love You - A Romanogers Fanfic

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STEVE'S POV

I wake up to a tickling in my nose.
I look down, only to find a head of red hair on my chest, half of the hair in my face.

Natasha's soft bare skin on my skin is like heaven, and I pull her closer with the arm I have around her.
She breathes deeply, still asleep.
I can't see her face from all her hair, so I softly remove it from her warm face.
She's so beautiful. God I love her.

I don't remember everything from last night. Thor's Asgardian goods hit really hard.
But I remember the most important things.
I remember every single one of her kisses, and every single one of her touches.
I'm falling too hard for her.

She makes some cute little noises and moves around a little.
I stroke her hair and kiss it before I lean back against the headboard, thinking about how I want to remember this moment forever.

After a while I get back to reality when I feel some soft pecks on my chest and stomach.
"Good Morning" Natasha smiles and moves so she's all the way on top of me, resting her head on her hands.
"Good Morning" I say and tuck a bit of hair behind her ear.

We just look into each other's eyes, and I can't imagine a better way to spend the first day of the year.

A couple of minutes of just looking at each other she kisses me, just a quick kiss.
I put my hands on her cheeks and look into her eyes again.
"Did you sleep well?" I ask her and kiss her forehead.
"Very well, you?" She says and puts her head on my chest again.
"Like a little child" I say with a smile.
"I don't hope children do what we did last night" she smirks.
I chuckle. "I certainly don't either" I say.

She starts kissing my chest, leaving her soft lips on each spot just the perfect amount of time, but I stop her after a short time by cupping her face in my hand.

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NATASHA'S POV

He stops me and looks me in the eyes, his beautiful orbs staring right into mine.
"I love you" he says, and I'm pretty sure my heart stops beating.
The sentence I can feel I've longed to hear, but too fucking scared to say, even think.
I can barely accept him saying it.

My instincts instantly tells me to run away. Far away and never look back. But it's all I ever do, I can't do that now too.

"I...I...I...love...I'd love to stay, but I really gotta go" I say.
God damn it Natasha, why is it so fucking hard for you? You monster! The best man in the world just told you he loves you and all of a sudden you gotta go? What the hell is wrong with you?

I curse at myself in every language I know as I get out of the bed, and in no time is fully dressed in my outfit from last night.

"This was really fun" I say and hurry to the door.
This was really fun? Oh just go throw yourself off a cliff already Natalia!

I hate myself so much right now, but I can't let him love me. He's gonna get hurt, and so am I.
I leave the room in a rush, a single tear running from the corner of my eye as I do so.
I'm sorry Steve.

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STEVE'S POV

I can feel my heart shatter into a million pieces as the door slams behind her.
I get out of bed and put on a pair of boxers and shorts before I run to the door, almost ripping it off the hinges in my rush.

"Natasha!" I yell. "Nat!". I keep yelling.
"Nat?" I yell with less force and stares out into the empty hallway where my voice echoes, but she's already gone.

I can hear the elevator ding from the far corner, and for a moment I think it's her until I hear Wanda's voice.
"Steve? What happened?" She comes running towards me.
I pull her into my room and close the door behind her. I don't want any possible passers to see me right now.

I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
"Steve what happened? I just saw Natasha and she was completely out of it" She says.

I guess there's no point in not telling the truth.

"I just...I told her that I...that I love her...and then she just...she just left" I almost sob.
"You told her you loved her?" She asks in a low tone.
"Yes" I say and look down to the floor.
"And she didn't say it back?" She asks in the same tone.
I raise my voice. "No of course she didn't. I'm hopelessly in love with her, and she has zero feelings, god that woman is like a robot" I scream, and I can feel anger build up inside of me.
"Don't say robots can't have feelings" she says and points at me in a threatening way.
"Not the time Wanda" I say, my patience running low.
"Sorry...sorry! Wait? You're hopelessly in love with her?" she asks and a smile forms on her lips.
"Yes of course I am, and I keep wanting to tell her, but it's like she hates me, she keeps avoiding me or shutting me down" I shout even though Wanda is right in front of me. But I'm hysterical right now, and I slam my fist into the wall just to make the pain
go away.

"Don't you see it...?" she asks and looks at me, slightly scared.
"See what?" I ask her loudly.
"Are you that blind? Steve. She likes you so much, and it scares her. She doesn't know how to react or what to say, she's freaking out! She always knows the next step, but not in this. This is totally new to her, she can't even make a guess here" she's the one yelling now.
"Is that so? How do you know?" I ask her.
"Do you know how much time I've spent trying to make her tell you?" She says.
"No I don't" I mumble.

She puts a hand on my shoulder.
"Clear your head, do something, and then talk to her when you've gotten yourself together. You're acting ridiculous" she says.
"I will, thanks Wanda" I say.

"I'm so good at fixing relationships" she squeals to herself as she leaves my room, and I can't help but smile at that.

A couple of hours later I come out of the shower after a twenty mile run, still not enough to make anything stop hurting.
I wrap a towel around my waist and go back into my room.
Just as I'm about to sit down, it knocks on the door.

When I open, I see Natasha's red hair, and she stares into my eyes with hers. They're full of tears, and her whole body is shaking.

"I love you too" she says, almost in a whisper, but she says it.