I'll Always Love You - A Romanogers Fanfic

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Civil War storyline starts here, and I know that not everything match the storyline of the movies, like The Avengers knowing about Tony and Pepper's breakup, but it made more sense to the story that they did, and there's a few other things that I've adjusted to fit the story as well.

The rest of April and May passes in the blink of an eye. All the Avengers have been busy with missions that's gotten bigger and bigger, and consequences growing with them.

The latest one, in the end of May, the one in Lagos ended in a huge disaster with multiple casualties, and the Avengers from that mission, Steve, Natasha, Wanda, Sam, and of course Redwing, have all spent hours trying to help out and reason their actions.

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STEVE'S POV

I wake up from a restless sleep with Natasha in my arms.
She's breathing deeply and mumbling something in her sleep.
We've both had countless sleepless nights since we got back from Lagos, talking about what we could've done. Especially I have been thinking a lot about it.
Tony's been scolding me about letting it happen. Like he didn't create weapons that's killed thousands.

These last few days have been a lot about trying to make Wanda realize that the fault wasn't hers. It was mine. I should've noticed that god-damn vest, but he mentioned Bucky, and I froze.
I clear my throat and move around uncomfortably from the thought, enough to wake up Natasha.

Bucky's been on my mind a great deal since we got back. He remembered me, he remembered something from his life, and they took it away from him as soon as he got it back.

"Steve, you've got to stop beating yourself up. It happened, the only thing we can do now is move on and be a little more careful on the next mission" Natasha interrupts my thoughts and kisses my jaw.
"But Nat, Rumlow said that Bucky remembered me" I say.
"I know, you told me a billion times. But they brainwashed him again, and that sucks, but brainwashings are no joke. Chances that he remembers you now are slim" she says.
"But they're there" I say.
"Of course they are, and what I've heard about him, before he was turned into that, he seems to care a lot about you, and that raises the chances a lot" she says.

I sigh. I shouldn't ask her this question but if there's any chance that Bucky could remember me, it's worth the question.
"Do you...erh...you told me you were...erh...brainwashed too. Do you remember anyone or anything from before that?" I ask her and hope to god that she doesn't kill me for asking.
She gulps and sits up. I know she hates being asked about her past, and this is a big question too.

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NATASHA'S POV

I had a feeling he would ask me this sooner or later.
And I want to answer it, and I'm gonna, no matter how much I've repressed it, I'm gonna answer him, because I know he misses Bucky like crazy.

"Erh..." I start and sit on the edge of bed facing away from him. He doesn't need to see the tears that's slowly rolling down my cheeks.
"Some things stick with you, the most important things, and the most important people" I say, trying to keep my voice steady. He doesn't say anything, but I can feel his eyes on my back.
"I remember..." I say in a quiet voice.
"I remember Yelena" I continue.
"Who was she?" He asks quietly after a while, and I can hear that he's being very careful with his words.
"My sister, my adopted sister" I say and think about her, which I haven't done in a long time because it hurts too much.
"I also remember our adoptive parents. Melina and Alexei" I say. "And that's about it, and then I can recall a few events too from after Ohio, but only bits of them" I continue and wipe my eyes before I turn around to look at him. I remember everything from Ohio. Thank god. It was probably the best three years of my life even though I knew what it really was.
"I'm sorry" he says and sits up next to me and wrap an arm around me.
"I know you are" I say and put my head on his shoulder, before I start crying softly. Maybe I miss them more than I thought?

After a moment I pull myself out of this pathetic state of mind and wipe my eyes again and remove my head from his shoulder to look at him.
"But Steve, you gotta remember, that Bucky's brainwashings have probably been at least ten times worse than mine. He was so far gone that he tried to kill you, his best friend. I never tried to kill Yelena, even though they told me to, two or three times to test my loyalty, because on some level I knew that I knew her. Bucky didn't have a clue, when he tried to kill you, and that says something about the level of mind wiping" I say.
"So you don't think he'll remember me?" He asks with a sad voice and looks at me.
"I think he cared too much about you to forget entirely. That's why I never killed Yelena even under their control, so I think that if he's clear of brainwashings and hypnosis or whatever they do for long enough, I think he'll remember you" I say and put a hand on his cheek and stroke it with my thumb.
"Thank you Love" he says and kiss the palm of my hand.
"You're welcome" I say with a tiny smile.

"I've got to go check on Wanda, and remember that Tony will be back this afternoon" he says and gets up with a kiss in my hair.
"How could I forget. He's probably coming with a new way to shit on us, that wonderful man" I say with a sarcastic smile.
"Probably" Steve says as he puts on his sweater and buckles his belt. "I'll see you in a couple of hours. I love you" he says and opens the door to leave.
"I love you too" I smile and he smiles back before he leaves my room.

I watched Black Widow today!! JddjjfaidjdnIcjbni! It was soo good!!! And I've gotten more motivation again!