I'll Always Love You - A Romanogers Fanfic

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STEVE'S POV

Yelena raises her head and looks at me with wet eyes.
"I just...I don't know if Natasha told you exactly what happened in Russia this summer..." she says.
"She hasn't told me anything" I say.
"Nothing?" She sniffles.
"No nothing. Yelena, what's wrong?" I ask her concerned.
"I can't tell you, I can't" she cries and curls up in her bed.
"I know I don't know you very well, but you're my girlfriends sister, so you can tell me anything. Especially something that upsets you this much" I say and hand her my handkerchief to wipe her tears.
"It is not because I don't know you well...I...no..." She starts, but she can't finish her sentence.
"No pressure" I say calmly and sit down next to her in the bed.

Her breath is trembling as she leans on my shoulder with a deep sigh.
"You know the Red Room" she whispers.
"Yes" I nod and I cover her shaking body with her blanket.
"From mama's generation there were someone who developed a...mind control drug...something...and...the reaction...to this drug...was so close...and I...no I'm sorry, you shouldn't worry about this" she sobs and hides her head in her hands.
"Yelena?" I say and pull her head up.
She looks at me with sad eyes.
"I worry. Of course I worry. I know nothing about what you, or Nat, or any other girl that's ever been in the Red Room, had to go through. But it haunts your sisters nightmares, and she's one of the strongest people I've ever met, so it must've been so terrible, and I don't wish that fate on anybody. So tell me. Tell me and I will do everything I can to help you" I say and put a comforting hand on her back.
Her eyes just stay on me without her saying anything.

Her lip trembles. "Really? You'd...you'd help a stranger?" She asks.
"You're not a stranger, Yelena. You're the sister of the woman I love the most in the world, and I will do anything for her, and those she cares for. And that's you. And what's better is, that I actually really like you" I tell her.
"Captain America isn't as bad as Alexei made him up to be" she says with a little smile.
I chuckle a little by her comment, and look at her, almost asking for her to tell me what's bothering her.

She sighs.
"The mind control drug that was made two generations ago...it was...it was used on the rest of us after Natasha escaped, because they could not have us exposing them, so they needed to be able to control our minds so we wouldn't..." she begins, and I get most of it, but her Russian accent combined with her trembling voice makes it a little harder.
"I told Natasha exactly what it did...but I don't...I don't want to talk about that again. It is just because, what was given to us...then...had the same reaction when she drugged us, that the mind one had..." she says and wipes a tear from her cheek.
"So it bring back memories?" I ask her, and she answers with a nod.
"I have a feeling that's not everything" I say when she keeps looking at me like she wants to say more.
"It's not..." she mutters.
"What is it? I ask.
"I know that you and Natasha love each other, and I am happy that she loves someone, I am...but..." she says embarrassed.
I smile awkwardly, knowing exactly what she means.
"It is not why you think it is...I know that you are not hurting her...but...I've heard girls being hurt behind closed doors...and...it just reminds me...of that...I'm sorry..." she says quietly and gives me a little smile.
I can't help but feel a little proud over how loud I can get Natasha to scream, but the fact that it bothers Yelena in THIS way makes me feel guilty.
"I really just thought it was because you didn't like hearing your sister doing...that..." I say, and can't really find a way to say it without feeling embarrassed.
"Well I don't like that either" she frowns and almost sounds as her usual self.  "But it's not the reason" she adds, a little more quiet.
"We'll try to keep it down. I'm truly sorry that you ever had to go through everything you did. No one should ever have to" I say, meaning every word, and give her a side hug before going back to my own bed to take a nap.

"Steve?" She asks and looks at me, just as we're both about to close our eyes.
"Yes?" I ask her.
"Thank you" she smiles.
"Of course. You can always talk to me. But if you ever want a phone conversation with a picture, I'm not your guy" I say, making her chuckle.
"Natasha told me, you were bad at those things. Talking about her...can we...not tell her?" She asks and gives a hopeful smile.
"We can avoid that, yes" I say.
"Thank you. I hope she agrees to marry you someday. You're perfect for her" she says, like it's nothing, and turns to the other side, leaving me thinking about what she just said.

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NATASHA'S POV

I return to the S.H.I.E.L.D base where I left Steve and Yelena two weeks ago, after a flight that felt like forever.
As soon as I enter the building from the cold helipad outside, I rush to the first person I see.

"Captain Rogers and Miss Belova? Are they where I left them?" I ask fast.
The little Agent, almost shorter than me, which is unusual, nods frightened. I almost forgot people fear me. I've been feeling so vulnerable lately that I forgot that I'm a trained killer, and people fear me.

I open the door to find the two people that means the most to me in the world, sleeping in beds next to each other.
I smile to myself, so happy that I've accepted that I love them.
I don't get to be happy for very long though, because suddenly I feel extremely nauseous and I run to the bathroom connected to the room, and I throw up. And I keep throwing up.

"Turn around and raise your hands" Yelena suddenly says behind me.
I turn around, feeling very dizzy and she lowers her gun.
"Natasha? You're back! Are you okay?" She asks and helps me up from the floor.
"I'm good thanks. I would've waited until you both woke up...but yeah...I'm back" I say and put my head under the faucet to wash out the remaining puke in my mouth.
"Did it go well?" She asks excited and hugs me.
"I finally got her, and she's in S.H.I.E.L.D's custody so it's good now" I say and hug her back.

"I thought I heard voices" Steve says, interrupting mine and Yelena's conversation, and his head shows up in the door.
"Natasha's back!" Yelena exclaims.
"My Love! God I've missed you!" Steve says happily, and picks me up from the floor, spinning me around making me even more dizzy.
"I've missed you too" I smile and give him a kiss.
"Hello!" Yelena says and waves her hand.
"I've also missed you, Yelena" I say and give her another hug.
She smiles satisfied, and I look at both of them.
"You're both up, you're both good" I notice, and I feel relieved.
They both nod and we walk back into the room.

After telling them about the mission for an hour, and hearing about how they are, I feel exhausted.

I lay down in Steve's bed and cuddle up against his body heat and his calming scent.
He wraps his arms around me and looks at me.
"Are you tired, Love?" He asks and kisses my hair.
I nod in his t-shirt. "I've been extra tired since I left two weeks ago" I say tiredly and kiss his collarbone, just where his t-shirt ends.
"Do you want to take a cuddly nap?" He asks, and I nod again.

Cuddly naps became a thing when I got home from the hospital, and I absolutely love them. And so does he.

He pulls me as close to him as possible, and I feel the safest I have ever.
I hear him saying something to Yelena before I go out like a lamp.

I'm sorry I haven't updated for days, but I've been crazy busy.
I don't have anything keeping me busy for a long time now, (expect school but idc) so I'll do everything I can to get back with the daily updates.
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