Love's A Real Thing Right?

Chapter 32: The longest seven seconds; Part 16

Later that day around seven p.m Ace messaged Aurora;

[So we're actually going through with this, it actually happened, I can't say much I know what I said and I did, but all I can say is this, I really hoped that this wouldn't have been the outcome of our conversation today, I had hoped that you would understand that what I was saying was out of love and care for you, I hoped that you would understand that all I wanted was for you to be happy and not be sad with Dani as your friend, because that isn't good for you, you already have enough stress, and you said that I said I couldn't tell you my problems, but if all my problems have to do with the fact that you take other people's problems, or the fact that you don't stand up for yourself, so, how can I quarrel about that, or tell you about it, when you tell me that you won't do anything about it, how can you expect me to be happy when I know you're sad and you won't do anything about it, and I can't, cause you don't care to change it, how can I be happy when you let people walk all over you, and you take these same people and put them on a pedestal, how can I be happy with that, those are my problems, what do I do, but what I did is done, and I can't or won't take it back, because I can't, I could've stayed with you, but I would never be happy, because when you're sad, how could I be happy, because even when I look at you being happy with those people, I know that the happier they make you, the sadder you'll become later on, why I say that is because you spend time with them. Because the little time you spend with them makes you so happy, but then the majority of time they neglect you, you get really sad, what do I do, I try to stop you from making yourself sad or putting yourself into the situation to be sad, but when I do, I always seem like the villain, but what can I do, all I want is to see you happy, and maybe without me in your life as your boyfriend, then maybe you'll be happy, because maybe even though your sad, that little happiness is enough for you, but it isn't for me, I want your life to only be filled with happiness because from the time you were small your life was only filled with sadness, but I'm just selfish because I don't care what you think, I just care that you're happy, and maybe without that in your life, you'll actually attain happiness, and that's all I can say about what happened, I'm really sorry, and I still love you so much, but I can't stay with you and watch you make yourself sad and put those people who make you sad on a pedestal, I just can't, and I can't stick around and know they are doing it and turn a blind eye, because you don't say anything, I care to much for you, and maybe that makes you feel suffocated, and for that I apologize, but I love you to much to stay and watch you do that to yourself, and I can't sit and watch you do it, and accept what you're doing, because it bothers me and I can't be happy with it, I can't be happy with you making a new guy friend every other month, only because if you make them, then maybe Dani will spend more time with you, then you find friends in those guys because they are cool, but I can't handle you making two new guy friends almost every month for the rest of my life, so I'll conclude with this, I'm a terrible person for what I did today, but I hope that maybe what I did today would help you be happy, and that's all I care about, I still love you Aurora, and I'll always love you for the rest of my life.

Ps. From what I can see it worked, because she's posting you now so yeah, I hope you attain happiness now.

I don't need a reply or anything, just read this if you have the time and to that's all.]

[It's ok, I don't hold anything against you. There's not much I can really say about the situation so I won't because it won't help anything. I wish you the best in life. I love you too.]

[So we're gonna stop talking to each other?]

[I'd like to hope not.]

[Right, then don't wish me the best in life, help me make my life good, by staying my friend, yes it'll hurt me like a bitch, but I don't know what to do, or what to say, cause I said it all already, and as usual, you don't say anything to what I say, so I don't know what to do or say, you never said what I thought about your relationship with Danica is wrong, or that I was getting the wrong idea, you never told me when I said I don't wanna see you cry about your friends being fake or mean, or not being there, so I don't know, if I'm right, just because you love her doesn't mean that you should take the pain, you need to explain it and help me see it from your point of view, else all I'm doing is speculating and going along with my own understanding.]