Red Flag [COMPLETED]

Chapter 1

My name is Lalisa Manoban. I have two secrets. And that secrets should never get revealed or else a lot of people will be hurt. I decided not to be a selfish person so here I am always enduring the pain.

The first secret is about my real passion. I wanted to quit my regular job and focus on it but I can't. I will only bring disappointments to my family and friends. The only person who knows about this secret is my best friend. And she's very supportive of everything. I just know that anyone can turn their back instantly except her. That is why our friendship is so precious to me.

And the second secret involves her. Well, something I can't tell her even though she's been my best friend forever. And my other secret hmmm can you already guess it?

I accidentally fell in love with Bae Joohyun. My best friend since we were in fifth grade. But she does not feel the same. She's too in love actually with someone else. And I wish them happiness forever though it has been a torture to me. She's engaged to be married to her long-time girlfriend Seulgi. Also a friend of mine. That's how things are so fuck up so yeah, that's my dilemma.

Club Octagon

I already asked myself several times. Why am I here and why can't I just say no? I know I am still in my right mind. I have so much work to do. But my feet decided on their own and brought me here. I actually hate going to clubs regardless if it is a high-end club in Seoul. This is not my thing. And also I have my image to protect. I have given so much to earn this status. I can't just let anything or anyone taint my name after building my career for many years.

I finished washing my face, Joohyun must be looking for me. I only excused myself to go to the washroom because I felt like I was about to throw up due to mixed alcoholic drinks. I asked her to give me some. So we could empty everything and be done with it. She agreed with my suggestion that once we're done we should go home. Such a good girl.

I went out of the washroom. I paused and looked at her from a distance. She's wasted again. This is the 4th time she called me to ask for company. Seems like her other friends are busy. Last time Yeri dropped by my unit to let me know that Joohyun was drinking alone. She didn't have a choice but to ask me for help. She knew I can never say NO to her older sister, Joohyun. Such a sneaky turtle. I don't know why Joohyun keeps doing this to me. She's a terrible friend I swear but I keep falling for her no matter what.

I took time to appreciate her as I walked in her direction. Look at her, isn't she a real beauty? She's more beautiful each day. I don't know if I got bewitched or not. She does not know I have been gay for her since I met her. My parents got a haunch but it's no big deal for them. Or maybe they are because of Pops. The family patriarch.  Both dad and mom are just concerned with my career choice not with my personal life. They actually asked me if I am dating Joohyun. I only laughed at the silly question. She's out of my league while she and Seulgi are like a match made in heaven.

The funny thing here is that my parents are cool being gay but not being an art enthusiast. They said I don't have a future if I would be a mere artist. And they did not send me to the best college for nothing. We are from a family of lawyers so it should continue no matter what. It's just so sad that I can't do anything about it. I need to stick with it because it has been always like that. Joohyun always encourages me to do whatever I like. To stand up for myself but I am just a born coward.

I don't know what's going on. Maybe she misses her so much? Seulgi went abroad because of her work and she wanted them to have a better future.
Yes, they are together for some time but in a long-distance relationship. Maybe she's planning an extravagant wedding because her proposal was a typical one. Like she didn't even think about the right concept. I don't think I would say yes to that if I were Joohyun. But of course, she said a BIG YES when Seulgi awkwardly knelt and asked for her hand. Good for them that they already found their greatest love. I can only force myself to be happy because it's their happiness after all so I need to support them. I shrugged off all the negative thoughts inside my head.