Red Flag [COMPLETED]

Chapter 41

IRENE

I woke up upon hearing my girlfriend's desperate screams. I thought everything was working well with the regular therapy sessions with Jennie. I wondered what's really going on. I immediately reached out to turn the lamp on so I could check her. I saw her sweating while her eyes were still shut. She was saying incoherent words. "Baby, it's alright. Please wake up, Baby." I did call her a couple of times already but she seemed not to wake up. I slightly shook her body. "Baby, please wake up. You are really scaring me." I didn't know what exactly to do. Her nightmares were getting worse and in a split second I realized I was pushed hard and I stumbled down from the bed. My head hit the cabinet and I groaned in pain. Then I saw my girlfriend in complete shock as she was fully awake and watched me slowly crawling back to bed. I saw the guilt written all over her face and I didn't want her to think that she hurt me. Of course, it was an accident. "It's okay, it was nothing. I am not hurt at all." I lied and pretended I was not hurt as I tried to pull myself together from being shock. She's never a violent one. If she did push me then it's never intentional.

"Did I just push you?" She could not utter a word being afraid to hear the truth from me. She was about to cry and my hands reached her face instantly. I don't want her to cry. It was a minor accident. I am always soft for Lisa.

"No, you didn't. You know how clumsy I am, Baby. Don't ever think that you are capable of hurting me physically. I know you aren't like that." I was lost looking at her doe eyes.

"I thought, I pushed you. Are you really okay?" She was in panic while checking my whole body. "Tell me, I did hurt you, right?" She had not recover from her nightmare and lost if she was still dreaming or whatnot.

"Baby, you did not. I was about to get up and tripped over. I swear it wasn't your fault." I assured her.

She sighed, "Goodness, I could not imagine myself hurting you like physically. I will never forgive myself if I ever do that to you, Baby."

"I know. And I've known you for all of my life and you are the softest person I ever known, Baby. We are the same and you will never do that to me."

"Thank you for sticking with me, Baby. I am not sure if I was dreaming earlier or not. It seemed so real." She hugged herself and I watched her trembling.

"You were having a nightmare again, Baby. Do you want to talk about it?" I know she's sensitive about the matter but I had the urge to coax her to at least talk it out with me other than Jennie.

"No, I'm fine. I will consult this with Jennie. Maybe I need to change my sleeping pills too. I don't feel that I am getting enough sleep recently. I had a lot on my plate. I still need to figure out how to help Sooyoung to clear up the issue." I could see how concern she is for her friend. But Joy has been a celebrity since she's a little girl and she can handle anything. I could not understand why Lisa must be worried for her when she herself is still not well.

"Alright," I drop the topic. I don't think anything I suggest would matter with her.

"What are you thinking?" She asked curiously when she realized I was being silent.

"Nothing, let's go back to sleep. I will be early at work. I don't know why my boss is being all work up recently." I briefly shared. I rarely share work stuff. I just couldn't find anything to talk about when she didn't want to share her nightmares with me. It pains me when she still acts like that but what can I do?

"You always resolve anything. You are the fixer, Baby." She encouraged me. I wanted to tell her that I wish she's right. Because I can always handle any pressure at work but anything that concerns her is something that could ruin me. I tend to overthink a lot. There's a part of me thinking that all of this happened because I let myself fall deeply in love with her. If I didn't tell her my real feelings maybe she wouldn't have to deal with her grandfather's wrath.