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Chapter 8

LISA

Joohyun was right about a lot of things. To love someone is liberating. I can't believe the love of my life could really love me as much as I do.

My initial plan was to run away, move on and forget everything about her. From the very beginning, I know she was all over Seulgi and she wanted them to end up together. I was just the best friend who celebrates all her success and happiness and would never say anything against her decision. I was just the supportive best friend that every time they had an argument I would make sure I was there to listen and not judge her. For years even Seulgi was away I could only hear praises about her from other people but Joohyun would vent out how she became a second priority. I wanted to react that she shouldn't settle for less. Because for me she's my whole world, my everything. When I woke up from the long sleep I asked about her and my parents had no idea how affected I was hearing that she was finally engaged to Seulgi. Well, it was effected already they just need to announce the final date. They told me she was delaying it hoping that I would wake up and be able to be present on their wedding day.

I felt like dying slowly when I realized I would really lose her for good. Because when she got married I needed to deal with my heartbreak silently and alone. I didn't want her to wait for me to wake up and decide later for her happiness when she had been waiting for too long. I would never want to be someone who was keeping her dreams to come true. I wanted her to be really happy and marry the woman she loved. So my whole mind was chaotic and spoke what I wanted to do right away. I asked my parents for my passport. I said that I need some time off. I was so disoriented when I woke up and realized I wasted a lot of time sleeping.

But then they said Joohyun never stop caring for me even how busy she was with the wedding preparation. She was just away and soon would drop by the hospital. I panicked, I didn't want her to see me. I might be unable to let her go and be selfish for once. But I decided against it and pursued the first plan to run and hide. Not to go back and never see my love who is also my greatest heartbreak.

And just like that I flew away but she came all the way to me to tell me she was not going to marry Seulgi because she realized she loved me back. That she remembered vividly what I confessed at my car during that crucial moment. I was shocked that she knew about it. I didn't know she was conscious at that time when I confessed everything because I was so afraid I might lose her for real.

Everything was like a dream to me when she was at the bar trying to convince me to go back. I was too caught at the moment and pretended I don't recall her. It was a damn act. She was really chasing me and even showed up in my hotel room.

God must have heard my prayers. Maybe it took him some time but he answered me. He made Joohyun find out about Seulgi's secret affair before they even got married. They broke up because Joohyun realized she was being cheated on by the person she thought she would spend the rest of her life with. I felt angry about it but at the same time relieved that they haven't married yet.

Skipping all the things that happened. I invited Joohyun out rather than staying in my room so we could avoid the temptation that had been bothering me so much. I couldn't bear to do such a thing when I myself isn't out of the closet yet. She deserved better so I needed to fix myself first and present the best version of me. She was so understanding that she could wait and stay with me even without a label yet. She said she loves me no matter what and waiting won't be a problem.

I glanced at the woman beside me. She incredibly looks so beautiful day after day. I couldn't help but clasp my hand with hers. So I could feel her and prove that she was real. We just finished eating the hotdogs and just looking around. We walked together at the park like we cared nothing but ourselves. Then I noticed her shoelace got untied so I asked her to stop. She's always clumsy which made me always worry about her. Not that I am complaining. It has been my role to take care of this little woman.