7 am thoughts
Feb 2
People: "You know, if you really tried you could be [smart/attractive/social]"
Me: What was that? You lost me at "try"
Openly mocking myself in the morning makes me feel empowered
Feb 3
Him...
Feb 6
I wonder if my teachers watch me like I'm some special case; a time bomb. Or if I'm just another face, invisible in the shadow of their favorites.
Feb 9
They say if deprived of basic human needs, the mind and then the body will deteriorate until the person dies.
So if I ever lose my mind and don't realize it, and people wonder what happened, this was where it started
Feb 17
I'm gonna do this. Hunger is a war and this time, I'm gonna win. One pound, one battle at a time.
Feb 18th
I wonder if she thinks I'm going downhill too.
Why are the Mardi Gras colors purple yellow and green?
So...tired.
Feb 19th
My heart longed to be near his, while my mind itched to unravel and comprehend all the brambles surrounding it.
Feb 20th
No. No no no. This isn't supposed to happen. Everything's going wrong. What is all of this happening?? Why can't anything be right for once. Why...
What do I tell my teachers when asked why my homework's not done? That I was laying on the floor for hours, shaking with tears and beyond overwhelmed with the weight of existence? Or that I slept a couple hours the night before, doing everything I could to stop someone from slitting gaping rips in their wrists? No. This is why I've learned to get things done ahead. Work hard all day, because at home, at night, come the battles. At night I'll be talking a drunken friend out of downing a bottle of pills, or laying awake and wondering why I shouldn't swallow them myself.
Feb 26
Why do I keep saving everything for someone who I know is never coming back?
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Notes
AcakA glimpse into my mind. These are notes from my phone, starting from 2013 to the present day. My poems, rants, late night thoughts, things I've seen and heard, words I wanted to remember. (Note: There is some content hinting at various mature or tri...
