Notes

The End Of Us 2013

Well sorry I'm not perfect,
I'm not who I want to be.
Hold on, who am I kidding?
I'm not changing the real me.
I'm now a better person
Than I know I was before.
I think I've changed enough,
Why should I strive for more?
She tried to teach me many things
From which I never learned.
But theres one thing I do believe
I'm not just a monster to her
She saw something inside me
And with it fell in love
Though really it's my web of lies
That she thinks are good enough
Cause surely someone so bright
Can't love the darkest side of me
I'll only dim that weak pure light
Holding hope out of her reach
She doesn't say it much
But I see it in her eyes
Who I am just hurts her
It only makes her cry
She wishes she could fall in love
With someone light and pure
But as long as I'm around
She wont try to look for more
I think I'll make her hate me
Or hurt her just enough
For her herself to leave me
We'll both eventually move on
We both know leaving simply
Isn't gonna work
So I'll teach her to dislike me
For everything I'm worth
Cause it's so easy to convince myself I never cared
I'll find a different girl to kiss
Who can make me feel alive
Oh yes, I know
She'll cry herself to sleep
And hurt and ache inside
But I know once she moves on
Someone better she can find
That way at least I'll live with
The knowledge that I saved
Something pure from growing dim
And slowly fading away
She'll never understand
I'm doing this for her
Or maybe she will see
Years after I disappear
Kinda sucks that she can't love
My heart the way it is
She says she loves me, but really
She just wants to see a change in me.
But what's to be expected?
She wants pure and clean and light
I don't really think I'm wrong
But she doesn't think I'm right
If I felt like changing
I'd have done it long ago
And as happy as she makes me
I'd still rather let her go
Cause I'm fine the way I am
Just another human being
I'm just like all the others
Don't care 'bout much 'xcept me.
And as much as she would like to change
The world and all the human beings
It's in our nature all the same
To live our lives with greed
There's just some things
She'll never really get
I've told her many times
But she tries to just forget
She wants me to love
Some light I just don't see
To be honest I just think
She's being really naive
She thinks theres a reason
For absolutely everything
It's just a chain of coincidences
That makes some people believe
But really, where is this
God that she speaks of?
If what she says is true,
life only proves he doesn't love
There's just too much pain in this world
Too much hate and greed for me to believe
And it all doesn't make sense
Nothing 'bout faith can be explained
Sure would make life easy
To have a savior to rely on
But it's all a fantasy
To give hope in times of doom
So there. And now we have it
There's no hope for us to last
I'll quickly fade out of her life
Till I'm just a thing of the past
She wanted to be special
She wanted me to change
She thought that love can
Change the world, no.
The world will always be the same.