Fingertips | Spencer Reid

Chapter 63

Chapter 63

3,175 words

QUESTION OF THE CHAPTER: Rank the following flavours from favourite toleast favourite: Choco milk, strawberry milk, and banana milk.

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-Thaleia Blair-

I was on the floor again. When did I get here? I can't remember anything after he came... he took Savannah and I but- she wasn't in the torture room with me, he took her somewhere else. Where? Wait... I didn't even go to the torture room... And how was I back under the skylights? It was night already? The starts are so bright...

"Thaleia" a voice took me out of my daydream "Thaleia" it spoke my name again.

My vision was blurry, but I managed to make out his hair. Gosh... I could smell it... I could smell him...

He stayed there, leaning on one of the wooden posts, looking down at me. Why isn't he coming to my side?

"Spencer..." did he hate me that much? Did he hate me so much that he would leave me in the hands of this man?

"Why did you do it?" he asked, no emotion in his eyes "Why did you leave? Why did you leave me?"

He thinks I left him? No- I didn't! I wanted to stay!

"Apparently you don't love me after all" |

I do, I swear!

Why couldn't I reply? Why couldn't I move, hug him and tell him how much I loved him and for how long I had tried to tell him?

"I guess all the time we spent together, everything you said and shared with me, was all a lie" he turned around "Even what you wrote in your diary- all fake... I was just a game to you, a helpless boy you could drag around like trash" he said angrily "I don't matter to you, the team doesn't matter to you- we never meant anything more than a distraction, to you and to the people after you"

What is he saying?

"You used us"

No! I never did! I only wanted to protect you all...

I felt like crying- I was crying on the inside, but my body was not moving, it wasn't showing what I felt.

Move, damn it!

"I don't even know why I'm annoyed" he said after a few seconds. He then turned around and smiled "I didn't care about you either" his words stung. Is this what he felt when I pushed him away on my birthday? "I was only being nice, trying to get your trust, so I could break you and abandon you just like everyone else in your life has"

'Stop!' I screamed internally. God someone please help me...

"It was probably all your fault anyway" he stepped closer slowly "You were never meant to exist after all"

I felt a sudden sharp pain on my side that took my breath away. I guess it's true, what they say about words hurting, even more if they come from someone you love... it's often described as the worst pain one's ever felt.

No comments or words had ever pained me, so I thought the feeling would be like one I had never had before- but it was awfully familiar, like I had gone through the current pain many times in my life so far. How could that be possible?

By the time I came back to my senses and to the moment, Spencer was gone, the room around me was empty and dark. No stars were visible through the skylight, no rotten smell of the blood from past girls... I couldn't feel the ground beneath me, or how heavy my body had felt a few seconds ago- what was going on?