Fighting For Her [Completed]

Chapter Twenty

After that night with Diamond, I figured that the whole date thing was a bad idea from the moment I arrived at her house.

I wasn't sure what I did wrong but obviously I did something wrong cause the way she acted when I dropped her off.

But that's how Diamond always acted so I wasn't sure if it was even me or not.

Just my mind was telling me otherwise.

It was hard thinking of anything else that I could of did wrong.

I tried forgetting about what happened but it was hard when I came home that night and Violet was already jumping down my throat with questions.

I just gave her the truth and said that I wasn't sure how it went.

Even though I'm sure it went terrible from the start but she would keep asking questions that I didn't want to answer.

She knew something happened and tried talking to me but I didn't want to talk so I wen to my room that night and remained there for the night.

Constant thoughts of Diamond was in my mind throughout the night, knowing that I made an idiot out of myself even though I didn't intend on doing so.

But that's how I was around her anyways.

Didn't surprise me.

When it comes to her, I always make some sort of idiot out of myself. I knew that if I did face her, it wasn't going to go as smoothly as I wanted it to.

Sometimes I have major confidence and can talk to her without much though.

Then other times I'm nervous and can't talk at all.

I kept thinking about her and how I didn't want to face her cause of how much of an idiot I was.

Not sure what happened that night but it wasn't good.

But I didn't want to face her.

Ever again.

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When work came around, I was more than happy. I wanted to get my mind off of everything that has happened and getting to work was a great way to do that.

Violet asked when I would come back to the gym cause I haven't exactly been going.

I've been avoiding going and making up excuses just to not go.

I didn't want to see Diamond.

Not at all.

Maybe a small part of me wanted to see her but another part of me didn't want to see her.

There was no in between.

I just told Violet that work has me so stressed out that I wasn't sure when I would be back.

Truth is, I didn't want to go back.

I wanted to go for Violet but knowing Diamond was there was a huge flag for me. I can't bring myself to face her after that shitty date we had.

Violet would understand if I told her but she would also give me lectures on why I should go anyways.

Which I didn't want to.

So I kept faking the work thing and when I was actually called into work, I was so happy.

I heard my boss talk to Ryder down the hall and I tried focusing on my work but all I heard was his stupid mouth saying that he was going to find the best story ever this week.

Then my boss came back and said that my story, that I supposedly wrote and took pictures, was still headline news and that wasn't going to go away anytime soon.