"You look beautiful." Blaise said once we were back in the room Voldemort had set aside for us. There was no reception, just a forced marriage then leave.
"Thanks." I said waving my wand and my hair fell out of the bun. I picked up the pin Pansy had put in my hair earlier. I touched it with my wand and the Black crest changed to the Gryffindor crest. I laughed.
"What?" Blaise asked. I showed him the pin.
"Pansy." I said. He nodded, taking off his tie.
"Lily we-" He said but I stopped him.
"I don't want to be mean but why did you do this? You know I don't love you." I sighed.
"I know. Believe me I know that. I did it because I believe I would be more understanding of that then Rabastian Lestrange would. I know you love someone who is in a cell right now. I know that." He sighed sitting on the bed.
I waved my wand and it transformed into a black robe. I let out a sigh. Everything is black. I felt lightheaded and grabbed onto the bookshelf.
"You really mean, through sickness and health thing?" I asked. He nodded. "Alright." I said, going to sit beside him.
"Do you know what a Horcrux is?" I asked as he nodded. "Part of my bargain was that I become one for the dark lord." I said he gasped. "It made me powerful." I said.
"That's why you can do things no one else can, that's why you let off waves of dark magic." He sighed. I nodded.
"My body was never meant for this. I was raised with light magic. Basically the use of my magic has been contaminated by dark magic and it's killing me." I said looking away.
"How long?" He asked.
"How long have I been sick or how long do I have left?" I asked.
"Both." He said.
"I have been sick for 2 years; the doctors say I have a good 3-5 years left. I have no clue if it can kill me seeing as I am a Horcrux, but it hurts. In the beginning it was not so bad. A few headaches, some sick days. But it got worse the more I used my magic." I said.
"I knew something was wrong." Blaise said.
I looked away.
"I assume Draco knew?" Blaise asked.
"Yeah." I said.
"How did he find out?" Blaise asked.
"I had been sick for a few months at this point, hiding it. But Draco came into my room one night and found me in the bathroom throwing up blood. He was conquered so I told him. He and I were the only ones who knew. NowI guess you do too." I said.
"Lily, I am so sorry." He said taking my hands.
"It's alright." I said. We sat in awkward silence.
"Lily, we don't have to do this if you don't feel like it." Blaise said.
"I want to try, we should at least try to be a happy regular couple." I sighed. He nodded.
He leaned over and kissed me softly. I kissed him back putting my arms around his neck. It felt wrong. Like I was cheating on George.
He moved down and kissed my neck.
"I can do this." I thought. "I can do this." I said.
Blaise kissed more.
"I can't do this." I said. His lips were off me in an instant.
"I am sorry. I can't. "I said, pulling my legs up to my chest.
"Go. I will come get you in the morning." He said.
I knew what he meant. I snapped my fingers and my black robe turned into a pair of Black leggings and green top. I grabbed a black cape and pulled the hood on.
"Thank you." I said leaving.
"Lily?" He asked.
"Yeah?" I said, turning around to look at him.
"Make it count." He smiled. I smiled leaving the room. I rushed down the stairs and into the basement.
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The Fading Lily
FanfictionVoldemort has won the war. The Order of the Phoenix has gone underground. Harry is hidden away in his room. The Order had lost the war. Lily and others mourn for the lives that were lost in the battle. Countless lives have been lost. Included Remus...
