Vicky pov :
After talking with Arshi i laid on bed I am staying in her room which she stayed few days here as dad took my room we three are staying in different rooms as isolation.
I felt something on under pillow I saw arshi dairy laying I think she forgot here. I was about to put it away but stopped when my eyes caught my name on the page.
I move my eyes closer and saw a poem was written. She used to write poems back in our collage days.
Vicky,
When you touched me for the first time I forget about everything. The second you pulled me into your warm, secure arms, I decided to fight for you.
The second your lips met mine I felt current passing through all my nerves. You don't even need to touch me for make me feel like this. Your voice or smile just enough.
Your all habits became mine. Your favourites became mine. In past I would hate if anyone does something like this, changing their habits but I found my happiness in this. I didn't even regret for this.
Day by day, second by second I am becoming YOU. And I am scared that you won't like me because I am changing myself for you.
Am I stupid!!!!
When I finish reading I felt tears formed in my eyes I saw date was showing 1 year back. I felt so much guilt and pain as knowing how she lived loving only me.
She isn't try to change her mind or move on from me after all I created so much pain to her. She waited for me till now and still waiting for me.
Wish I could go back to our past and erase all those horrible memories and make happy memories with her but those are the best memories to remind how much she loved me.
If we didn't affect with covid I would run to her and hug her apologies for putting her in pain. But I need to wait for 14days.
I got call from my friend Viswa he is the doctor who checked up arshi when she had panic attacks. "Hello buddy! How are you" he asked me as I lifted the call.
"I am fine" I told him "make sure uncle check his oxygen in oximeter it is important" he said. "Yeah sure" I said.
"How is Arshi" he asked me i smiled hearing her name "she is fine" I told him. He knows about me and Arshi he is the only person I could trust blindly.
We are buddies since childhood in collage he choose doctor field as he interested and I choose business. "why are stopped writing book" he asked me.
"I don't feel like" I told him I used to write books to busy myself from Arshi thoughts at the same point I didn't anyone to know my name so I kept my details secret.
I only wrote books to pour all my love for Arshi in that books and I succeeded after writing my feelings I felt relieved a bit that day.
"Dude you are an amazing writer don't stop it" he said "I am sure Arshi is already starting loving that author 'V' as she had habit of reading books" he said I frowned "how do you" I asked him because Arshi didn't talk with him.
"Bro did you forgot we are all from same intermediate collage I know her in collage but she didn't know me at all. Moreover Meghna told me this" he said his words caught my attention.
"You know Meghna?" I asked him "I mean we are in contact but not so close she told me when I came to neha engagement" he said casually I smiled.
"So that means Arshi used to read my books without knowing it is me" I asked him "yep I didn't told Megha about this as you are my best friend I can't back talks about you" he said we laughed.
After talking with Viswa I laid on bed holding Arshi dairy I want to read more of her poems and her feelings but my eyelids became heavy as I slid into sleep.
Arshi pov :
I woke saw time it is 7 o'clock maybe Vicky didn't woke up yet I need to ask him about my dairy. Probably he already read it I don't mind him to read my feelings but I felt awkward knowing that he read them.
I freshen up and drinking my coffee Megha didn't woke up yet I was sat on chair in balcony watching rain. My thoughts went to past where I first gone out with Vicky when we didn't confess our love.
Flashback.....
"Meet me at 5pm tomorrow" Vicky said over phone "why!" I asked him "surprise" he said i smiled. Next day I waited for him in end of our street as my parents won't agree me going with a guy.
Maybe they will agree if I told them it is Vicky but I don't want to take chance. I saw him coming in his scooty and stopped in front of me.
"You have scooty" I asked him he smiled widely "yep" he said I only know he has a bike. "Hop up" he said I climbed behind him placing my hands on his shoulder.
"I never been in scooty or bike with anyone before" I told him "don't worry I won't let you fall" he said i smiled he drove off to somewhere.
I felt so nervous first few minutes but it faded away his talks make me relax. He took me to outskirts of city and stopped scooty. I couldn't see anything from here.
I got down he parked scooty suddenly Vicky closed my eyes with his hands "Vicky what are you doing!" I asked him placing my hands in his.
"Shhhh--" he whispered in my ear I felt goosebumps "do you trust me" he asked me slowly "more than anything" I told him "then no more questions" he said i nodded.
He lead me somewhere with his directions he slowly opened my eyes i blinked my eyes to adjust light. I saw sunset my eyes widened in excitement.
He took me to a bench we can see whole city from here. We sat there in silence watching sunset.
"Wow Vicky it was so beautiful" I told him holding his hand his eyes went to my hand I realised that we are so closed i slowly took my hand but he caught mine and hold it.
"Do you like it" he asked me i smiled nodding my head "I love it" I told him he smiled and slowly took out ice cream and placed in my hand.
"Is this For me" I asked him he nodded "for you" he said i smiled widely and opened it and start eating. "Hey give me some" he asked me forwarding his hand to take spoon but I slap his hand away.
"No" I told him eating he sighed and put his hand on bench turning towards me i turn towards him and forwards spoon he smiled and eat it.
Our eyes locked and faces are so close to each other that his breath fall on my face. His eyes slowly drifted to my lips my eyes to his lips.
I don't know what will happen but I like this moment with him he moved closer to me his thumb wiped some ice cream from my lips.
I felt shiver hands start shaking my eyes automatically closed I felt him move more towards me before his lips could touch mine we heard phone ring.
We both pulled back "I think we should leave" he said ran his hands through his hair i nodded we both left from there.
Present........
I smiled when I saw Vicky name on caller Id "madam did you woke up" he asked me I laughed "yeah" I told him "I even drank my coffee" I told him.
"What are you doing" he asked me "remembering our almost kiss" I told him smilingly "you still remember" he asked me "of course what kind of question is that vicky" I said rolling my eyes through he didn't saw me.
"Do you know what!" He asked me "what!" I asked him "I had something with me right now" he said mischievously my eyes widened.
"Vicky don't tell me even if you read that" I said feeling all embarrassed "hey there is nothing to be embarrass" he said "you are a great poet" he said I blushed.
"Vicky I want to ask you something" I said "yes" he said I took deep breath and make myself ready for ask him the question which is bugging me since so many days.
YOU ARE READING
IT'S ALWAYS HIM
Romance"I am going" she said looking into his eyes which were hiding tears just like her eyes. "Okay" he said she was waiting for him to say 'don't go' but she was not getting her answer. He was waiting for her to saying 'I am not going' but she was not sa...
