Songs For The Soul (Jenlisa Oneshots)

You're unfair

"Is this yours?" My voice broke, my hands shaking. Holding a painful truth she had caused. Tears formed in her cat eyes, preparing to cascade down.

I'm waiting for her to deny, to lie, to not break heart. She did the opposite, and nodded. My mouth agape, and my world shook. Making me stumble on the ground.

"Lili...I'm sorry" she uttered, trembling. She aimed to touch me but I dodge her. As if she is a deadly virus. Though even if not, she could kill me with this alone. My bestfriend for 10 years, my partner for 6 years and my fiancè for 2 years is pregnant with somebody else's child.

No doubt this isn't mine. I'm a woman, and it hurt ten thousand times more. Because everytime I would open up to her about building our own family she would reject it. For her we need to focus on our dreams first. I understand her, I compromised. When I suggested her if we gould try IVF she said no. Again, she still want to spend her time. But then this? My mind can't process it. My heart can't stand it.

She wasn't planning to tell me. I found it out accidentally. She forgot to throw the pregnancy test and left it on the bathroom. I was torn into pieces. We were fine, I don't know where did we go wrong.

"How can you easily give someone..something that I begged and dreamed for you to give me!" I spat with gritted teeth. I was furious, I want to slap her, I want to make her suffer. But I didn't, because I can't.

"I'm sorry" she wailed, running to me...clutching my shirt hard as I stared at the wall. Her tears drenching my cloth and mine falling rapidly.

"You're so unfair..why Jen?...you told me to wait, so I did. I respected you. Is it that hard to respect me back? Did I do anything wrong? Did I lack on something?is it because I'm a woman?" I croaked, still struggling to tell her my feelings.

She shook her head and hugged me tightly, doesn't want to let go. "No no...please don't think like that. It wasn't your fault. I'm sorry, I'm sorry...I love you...I love you so much." she muttered.

Speechless, I move away from her and searched for my luggage, she became paranoid as I begun to get my clothes. I can't be near her for now, I can't even look at her. Is it disgust?  Anger? Betrayal? Hate?maybe all in one. It was too much to take.

"Lisa no! please stay." she called but I didn't giver her attention. She started pulling out my clothes and I lost it. "DON'T ASK TO ME STAY! I WILL NOT, NEVER AFTER THIS. IT HURTS ME SO MUCH JUST BY SEEING YOU. SO STOP PULLING MY GOD DAMN CLOTHES AND LET ME LEAVE." I roared making her froze.

She can't save me, or even this relationship. She zipped her mouth.

When I finish packing I angrily slipped our promise ring on my finger and left it on the side of bed. Jennie just watched me left, crying on the corner. I walked out without glancing back.

On the way to my car I rang Jisoo's number.

"Lisa? Hey What's Up?" She said.

"Chu, Jennie needs you. Please go to our unit now. Please, please" I cried...

"What is happening Lis?"

"Just go to her and take care of her. You heard me?" I mumbled.

"Yeah, but can you tell-" I cut her off

"And chu, tell her to not find and wait for me.

Because I'm not coming back."