Songs For The Soul (Jenlisa Oneshots)

Left unsaid

There are things better left unsaid

For an instance...

"You're in love with your cousin!?" My hand flew to shut my best friend's unfiltered mouth. Roseanne struggled to shove me off, when we both calmed down I let her go. "Are you insane?" she muttered, looking left and right. I'm glad no one heard her, but what I did brought attention.

"Since when you bitch-" I massage my temple, I shrugged. "I don't have a clue, I messed up didn't I?" she leisurely nodded. "What you gonna do?" I lick my bottom lip. "Nothing, I'm sure it will pass"

I didn't I was frustrated, to mention we occasionally see each other. We belong to the same group of friends and joined the same club. And that's not the worst-case scenario, we're close, like really close.

Not to brag but Aunt Louisa, Lisa's mother love me and treats me as their own. Among our cousins, I and her get along pretty well. Every afternoon I would pay her a visit, which means I walk home with Lisa.

"Add a little bit more" I mumbled, I felt the tip grace my skin. "Done, you look pretty!" Lisa commented. I fluttered my eyes open and was taken aback at how close she is. She's smiling, holding the eye shadow palette.

I gulped before getting the compact mirror, she's good at this. "Smokey colors suits you" I blushed, I look away before she can see me turning into a tomato. "Next time let's try using the pink" I heard her giggles, oh god. Even her laugh sends tingles in me.

"Should I try?" I held on to my shirt when Roseanne slammed her hands on the table. "No, that's ridiculous," she said. We were talking about me trying a dating app. Lisa occupied her mind, she would pop up now and then. And I want to get her out of my system, it was so wrong of me feeling this way for her.

"What do you think?" Lisa twirled, the end of her dress flowed beautifully. "It's great" I stuttered, she went inside the dressing room again and I took that time to hit my head. "Stupid, don't be too obvious" An hour later, we stopped by a park Lisa jumped in joy after seeing a stray cat. She kneeled and patter her, "Hey! It might attack you" I unintentionally raised my voice.

"No, looks it's purring" she scooted away, and the cat seemed too pleased by her. "Just be careful" I reminded, I spent minutes watching her interact with the little guy. I was suppressing my laugh because she looks like she was expecting it to answer back.

"It's gonna be fun, I promise" she claimed, I shook my head. "I have better things to do" I reasoned, she glower and held both of my shoulders. "I haven't seen you date anybody! Do you want to be lonely in life?" She exaggerated to convince me.

And because I love her, my cousin...I couldn't say no. My hands and feet went cold when we entered the restaurant. Lisa was supposed to be picked up by her date but she told him she will go with me. I forced a smile when we saw the two men waiting for us.

I felt a pinch in my heart when Lisa comfortably clung her arms on his. But what made my brows rise is when she kissed his cheeks. "Jae, she's Jennie, my cousin" that hurts. The man dashingly smiled "Jaehyun, and that guy beside you is my friend Jeno" I glanced to my left and he waved, I reciprocated. "Jennie" Jae and I shook hands.

The double date went...well awkwardly for me. Lisa never showed the clingy side of her until now. And I felt foolish for wishing that it should be me. As predicted Lisa went home with Jaehyun and I was left with the guy named Jeno. To be fair, he's fun to be with. His charming smile and fatuous jokes made the night less boring.

Writing about my feelings might be the dumbest thing I've done in my whole life. My mother found my journal while she was cleaning. "Explain this Jennie" Dad threw the notebook on the table. It slides towards me as I lowered my head, ashamed. I have no words left to say, "Is this true Jennie? that you romantically fantasize about your-" I interrupted him "love, dad" I sternly uttered.

Dad pinched the bridge of his nose with eyes closed, on the other side Mom was crying silently. "Stop whatever is this, or I'll forget that you're my daughter." I obliged, I don't spend much time with her anymore. We slowly parted ways, I quit the club and would turn her down.

"That sucks" Roseanne pursed her lips, I sighed and I absently study the grass dancing. "I deserve it, I'm wrong. I just hope I can get over it sooner" I pulled a lost flower and fiddled it. This went on for months.

"She's leaving what?!" I furiously stood up, I learned Lisa will move to Manhattan. "That's what she said" Jisoo, Roseanne's girl and Lisa's friend disclosed. "Did she tell you the reason?" I asked. "Isn't she your cousin? You're the one who should know" she's right, I grabbed my bag and headed to their house.

"She wants to meet her family" My head went black "Family? What do you mean? You're here-" her mother sadly smiled "Her true family" I stepped back "I don't understand aunty," I said almost in a whisper. "She needs to know" Uncle caressed his wife's shoulders. "I can't bear a child Jennie. And Lisa, she's my best friend's daughter" my soul had left my body.

And my feelings was truly left unsaid, she never came back.

The End

The screen sunk and turned black, I sulked when I saw our reflection from the television. "Where's the respect? I was watching" I hit my girlfriend's shoulder. "That's the end, episode 11 will be on Friday," she said sleepily. I made a face mocking her. She pulled me by the waist and end up on top of her. "What if that happened to us? Will you go find me and tell me your feelings?" Lisa's body vibrated as she laugh. "No..." I pinched her cheeks hard "aww"

"You won't huh, I hate you" I glared at her, she was still laughing her ass off when she kissed me behind my ear. "I will search for you, across the countries, oceans, and even in the vast universe. I will not stop until I have you between my arms again"

"You're making me love you more" I pecked her eye. "No one is stopping you," one thing I thank myself for doing is not hesitating to admit my feelings for her. I almost lost the chance back then, but I'm stronger than fear. And I didn't let my love for her left unsaid.