Songs For The Soul (Jenlisa Oneshots)

Eyes of Yours (After)

I glimpse of Jennie's life after Lisa's death in my first story (Eyes of Yours)

5 years before Jennie heard the voice recordings.

Exactly a month after Lisa's disappearance.

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Never I understood

But forever accepted

That you're gone for good

And I'm alone defeated

I was ambiguous, I perceived her unrelenting choice as absolute. She offered herself to the world, for us to have it. As much as I want to rewind time and alter the possibilites, I will. But that's beyond my capability of doing so.

The aftermath of damnation leads to rebirth. We undergo a process that is too enigmatic to fathom. At the beginning I couldn't make head or tail of the reality. Not being able to see her captivating eyes again is far than hellish. Far more agonizing rather than having evil walk with us.

For months I didn't made an effort to speak. I lost all words for I can't decipher the reasons why. Her morals still flummoxed me in some point. Unhesistant she left, with nothing, with no one. Leaving me the same, she could have brought me with her. More willingly I won't prevent myself from dying. Then there's the people who'm we oath to fortify. Lili you save them, you give them prospects.

But what about me lili? They told me to forget about you. How can I when the bruises are still here? Fresh and open. They said I should test the waters, Lili is to cold without you.

The sun does shine, but it doesn't smile anymore. They say time would heal, yet I'm stuck at replying our memories together. I kept on waiting for you, I want to make myself believe that you're coming back like you always do. Awake and alive...my love.

They're becoming happier each day, while I let myself drown in loving you. Help me baby, guide me to cope up without abandoning you. Or better, let me see you, even just once...please. Make me feel at home again. Even if I can't talk or hold you.

Let me see those Eyes of Yours