Songs For The Soul (Jenlisa Oneshots)

Wrong Time

"You told me you love me" the brunette murmured, her cheeks pressed at the thai's skin. "u-huh, so you don't have any reasons to leave me" the younger one chuckled, Jennie glanced up to her pitiful. "Lisa, we can't stay like this forever" her voice trembled, the latter's arm fell on Jennie's shoulder, rubbing it.

"We can Jennie, it's matter of choice" she said, she was afraid more than before. She knew she can lose the brunette anytime, because what they have is temporary. "Then what if I don't choose you" Lisa quickly avoided her gaze, distancing herself. "I'll hate you" her answered terrified Jennie.

"Us, is wrong Lisa" the brunette sat, curling the mattress to cover her bare body. "Before we entered this, we are aware of it's consequences, and to be honest I'm still not ready. I don't want to disappoint the people around me, they expect better than this" she stated, every word equals to a stab in Lisa's chest.

"So you'll choose to hurt me?" The thai stated in disbelief, biting the inside of her cheeks. Her back facing Jennie, her spine cracked when she stood up, one by one wearing her scattered clothes. Jennie watched her dressed, she is magnificent under the school's uniform. But it reminds her of the rule they broke.

"I'm sorry, If can-" she swallowed her words. "I understand, you would rather end us than fight. Because I'm way younger, because I'm your student. It wasn't only agaisn't the law, but your and other's moral Am I right?" Lisa spat, not sparing a look at the brunette.

"Then why why did you let me? Why you didn't stop me when I kiss you, why didn't you prevent me touching you? Is because of the heat of the moment? Or you're just horny and played with me? I want to know Jennie..." Her eyes mirrored anger and pain.

"I'm sorry Lisa" is all that she can say, the thai frustratedly brushed her hair back before bursting out in tears. "Don't you love me?" Jennie didn't know that question will be her biggest nightmare. If she'll not answer yes, then Lisa would hope for more. But if she'll answer no, then this could be their last together.

The latter turned to her agressively , holding her hands and looks at her desperate. "I can quit school, I can work, I'm at my legal age...Jennie we can make things work" she said begging. But the brunette couldn't agree with her. It will make it more complicated.

"You can't do that"

"Yes I can! Just say you'll be in my every way..."

"You won't because I'll say so. Hear me out Lisa. There is a better future ahead of you. You'll find someone who can love you without conditions. A person who deserves someone as beautiful as you." Jennie gave her a chaste kiss.

"I don't want them, I only want you and you alone Jennie. I can't see my tomorrows without you. You're my dream and I love you" Lisa cried on her knees.

"Let's stop now Lisa, don't make it hard for me" Jennie sounded pleasing. The latter shook her head. "No..." She felt a light tapped on her head. "We reached our end"

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Jennie was careful the next days, weeks months. Lisa was stubborn following and catching her attention. But the brunette choose to ignore her immature antics. And the chase vanished after the Thai saw her former lover, her teacher going out with someone else.

She would smash anything in sight, her room was a messed. As if a typhoon passed by. To think Jennie can freely date the person, held his hand, and kiss him publicly kills her. The world is indeed unfair for the both of the. Even Though the brunette didn't admit her love for the latter, Lisa felt it in her heart.

Lisa lost the reason why she lives, and was brought to a path she hated the most. The never ending darkness and fear. She intake those pills and alcohols to escape the mad reality. It got worse when she heard Jennie is carrying a baby. And plans to get married. Lisa attended her graduation without a light on her face. She was this grey cloud wondering along the tranquil sky. She fell in the pit of hopelessness.

As for the brunette, never a second passed that she would forget about the younger one. She knew well that she hurt her more than she should. But can't do anything, because things happened unexpectedly. Though one thing didn't changed, she love her. She will always does.

When she was ready to face her again, it didn't come easy. Lisa was nowhere to be found. It was years since they last talked. Maybe this the right time for them to mend things. A smile painted on her lips when she got her address. But it disappeared into the sun.

Far from the neighborhood, she went. With flowers and the younger's favorite chocolates. The people there greeted her, and she bows everytime. And when she arrived at her room. Her heart wouldn't stop beating loudly. The nurse opened the door for her, and she was welcomed by a innocent and gummy smile of the girl.

Who seems didn't aged through the years. Because internally she didn't, instead her mind was brought back to her younger years. Where she would play out at the parks, under the rain or rainbows. "You have a visitor, Lisa" the girl clapped at the announcement. The thai estaticaly offered Jennie a seat. "Are you here to play with me?"

Tears formed in the brunette eyes, she dropped the flower and sweets running to Lisa and throw herself at her. Lisa gained their balance, still in confusion why the stranger hugged her. Reciprocating she caressed her back. "Don't you like my toys, Miss?" Jennie sobbed harder, it was the same name Lisa would call her before.

"I have other toys here" the latter muttered, "oh my god, I'm sorry...forgive me love..I'm sorry.." Lisa who's oblivious felt a pang in her chest. She doesn't like people who cries. It should irritate her, but Jennie's cry made her feel pain.

"I'm here now, you have me now" Jennie assured, not minding if the thai understand her. A minute more and they broke the hug, Lisa pestered her again to play with her, Jennie was more than glad to say yes. Her eyes never left and measure Lisa's every move and words.

The thai suffered to much and didn't handled the depr*ssion anymore and turned out like this. Child like and forgetful. Because she love Jennie too early, and Jennie love her too late.