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Lisa's Pov
Choice means having the freedom to choose between things. And we do it most of our lives, in everything we do. Choice can be seen as chance, for some people it will be good as it gives them the opportunity. However, for unfortunates like me, choice means torment. Because for me, if there are choices, there is a possibility you'll not be chosen, or you'll choose the wrong one, and what's heartbreaking, is that you can even not be a part of choices.
But in my situation, there are times I would think that what I did was wrong, and makes me regret it. Then, I'll realize, I did the right thing because if I didn't choose this path, she will never have hers. Math equations or what I expect after death? wasn't the hardest question for me, what I found distressing to answer was "Would I rather keep her with me, or let her go to achieve her dreams."
If this was asked to Jennie, she would probably answer, "I'll reach my dream with you." Because she's always the positive one, the person who has logical solutions to everything. But then again, I was the one who was asked, and as Lisa. Who is...I better not say it. I guess, I just know to myself that, Jennie and I weren't meant to be. That I was just a page of her book, a fragment of her story, a letter of her words, and a mere thought in her mind.
"She had her dream before me, so she'll have it first." That is what I answered. Jennie and I were an open couple. Our relationship was known by everyone. Though, not every person who knew liked the idea of us being together, we couldn't care less. She was an inspiring actress, and there's me, a person who wanted to be just herself. To be honest, I had no plans in life other than loving her. I think that's one of the reasons why I let her go because she doesn't only deserve my love, but she deserves what the world can offer. And I couldn't take her away from that.
"Dumpling? Can I ask you one thing?" I tilted a bit to see her. She was leaning her head on my shoulder. She's awake, she naps when we took seats on the train.
"What is it sunshine?" She removes the left side of her earphones, while I remove the right one that's attached to mine. The music gradually drowns as the sun hits her face, I could watch this every day...I could remember this moment forever.
"If we ever broke up" I laughed when she swiftly glared at me.
"Which will never happen" she replied intently
"Just listen to me, please?" I pleaded, it wasn't as serious, but it wasn't a hoax too.
"Okay...go on" she murmured
"If our relationship won't last. Someday, can we meet before we get married to another person?" Pain crosses her eyes which made me feel guilty. But I just want to make sure, that if ever, I want to see her before she vows to another.
"Why would we do that" she questioned, I sensed the discomfort in her. I held her hand and caressed it with my thumb.
"Just because, this love I have for you. I'm certain to keep it for the rest of my life. And if destiny has other plans for us. I want us to celebrate the love we had." I stated while staring at the windows of her soul. I've never seen them as intense, as she has.
