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-Maybe the biggest mistake I did was letting you go-
We had young love, it was beautiful. You came at the right time, you are the right person. Everything that I ask for, you embody it. Never did you disappoint, and will always put me in priority. I loved the way you made me feel, I love the way you make me see things.
Even our friends are aware of how lucky I am to have you. My family adores you, you know all my favorites memorized my habits and loved my flaws. The thought of you waiting for me under our favorite shed brings butterflies to my stomach. I'm fluttered at every compliment you say.
But it went downhill when a realization sink in. I was falling out of love, seeing you doesn't excite me anymore, your kisses felt strange on my lips, your touch is getting unfamiliar, and you're not in my dreams whenever I think of the future. I don't know when it started, or why did it happen. I'm convincing myself that I was just confused, or only needed space, but I don't. Heartless to say, I woke one day and I found myself wanting to forget you.
"You can lay on my shoulder if you're sleepy" the comfort I once felt, was replaced by awkwardness. "I'm fine" I shortly replied, nevertheless you gave my forehead a peck. I set aside the stupid thoughts, and let you own me for now.
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The drive to my house was silent, and I was tensed whole throughout. I couldn't find peace with your presence, I want to run away. Yo,u smiled at the bus driver before we walk out, I remembered liking the little things you do. I didn't wait for you and continued with my steps. I heard you skipping to catch up, startled I turned to you. Only to see you adjusting the strap of my back. "There, I loosen it up. It looks like it's squishing your shoulders."
For the hundredth time, I was searching for the warmth your smiles used to give me, and there was nothing. I nod timidly, you still deserve the gratitude. We've reached my house just in time. Straightaway I headed inside, not minding if you'll follow. You did and greeted my family. At dinner, you lighted up the mood, your stories everyone except for me. And when you began talking about the plans you have for us, I lost control.
"Lisa, can you shut up?" I harshly spoke, shocking each person. You were surprised, I never raised a voice at you. The glint in your eyes reflected embarrassment, but today I didn't feel any guilt. I was exhausted from work, then she'll blab and blab, I hate loud noises. "I'm sorry" you bowed your head. After that, I went to my room and slept, didn't even bid goodbyes to you.
