no matter what decision your heart makes, I will be waiting for you...

Chapter 31

2 weeks have passed in which Tom and I have spent almost every spare minute sneaking away, making out or even having a quicky. I'm serious, when Harrison slept over at his girlfriend's, we went on a date. I don't really know if it was a date because we never officially said it but mostly just went out for a nice dinner, but I know it was something. And every time he reached across the table and took my hand in his, while looking deep into my eyes as if he had lost himself in them, I felt more and more butterflies fluttering around in my stomach. This man made me happier than ever and I wanted him to know it. I want him to know. I like him... very much... and even though I shouldn't, I've already thought about the L word... But every time I did, I quickly shook it out of my head. Sooner or later he's going to let me down anyway and it doesn't help if I'm already thinking about love when we're not even together...

However... In 2 weeks, there will already be the ceremony in Los Angeles where Roney will say whether Tom will be the new boss of the company or Markus. And until then, I still need a new dress and probably a companion. I already asked Oliver for that. If he will buy a dress with me of course. As my companion, I still hope that Tom will ask me. Today is saturday and oliver is picking me up at 3pm to go shopping with me. I know a man as a shopping companion isn't very helpful since Oliver at least doesn't wear women's clothes, but Oliver can still help me by just telling me if it looks good on me or if I should try on another dress. On top of that, oliver himself needed new clothes and a suit for the party. I put on a crop top and a simple pair of baggy jeans with holes in them, so that I can change my clothes quickly when I try on dresses. Now I just had to tell Harrison what I was doing and Tom... well, I'll probably let him know too. So I bounced in front of the mirror again with a twirl, feeling happy, kinda because I looked cute. Just the way tom likes it. I went down the corridor and into Tom's room first. I stuck my head through his bedroom door and tried to sneak up on him, but he was nowhere to be seen. So I went further down until I arrived in the living room and saw him sitting on the couch with his back to me. Perfect !
Harrison didn't seem to be anywhere either so I crept up to him and without warning I covered his eyes with my cold hands, not letting him knowing who I am but he probably does anyway since it can only be me or Harrison. And Harrison doesn't have small hands, soo....
"Guess where I'm heading now..." I asked not too loudly. My body bent down to him and my voice flirtatious in his ears. He smirked once he heard my voice, grabbing my small cold fingertips in his big warm hands, and looking up at me sideways.
"I don't know Darling, give me a hint" I smiled, thinking while he warmed my hands with gentle strokes of his thumb over my knuckles.
"I'll just say this, after you see me, you'll want to fuck me" I give him the hint.
"Oh, believe me, I also want that right now" he smirks and grabs me by the chin, bringing my mouth closer until our lips brush against each other.
"mmhm..." I murmur deliciously at the feeling of his lips against mine which slowly turn into a passionate kiss with the movements.
"Y/N !!!!!!!!!" Shouts Harrison down the aisle in a rather not so calm voice. I jump away from my kiss with Tom and look in the direction of Harrison's voice, which soon appears in the living room.
"Why the fuck is your bra on Tom's bedroom floor?!!" He shouts angrily with his voice raised, holding my bra up by the strap with his left hand as if it were a poisonous chemical or something. I must have forgotten it when we had our shower quicky yesterday... Oups, my fault. But oh boy was it a good quicky, the way his hands went up my hips and held my hands while his tongue suc-
"There uhm... is an extremely reasonable explanation for this.... ehm, well... it was like this..." Fuck, I stutter and just can't get the words out of my mouth. Otherwise I always manage to lie...
"Why were you in my room anyways?" Tom had a point, and luckily the perfect point to buy me time to come up with a good excuse.
"Your mobile phone. I couldn't even watch my series in peace because some idiot was calling you all the time. Really, get it under control!!!"  Harrison grumbles. He throws the phone at Tom and turns his attention back to the two of us. "And so I went into your room in the mission to mute your phone only to find Y/N's fucking bra lying on the floor. So go ahead, speak. What's going on?!" He gritted his teeth.
"My shower only had cold water... so Tom offered me to shower with him. In his, I mean in his, not with him. He was somewhere else, probably on the phone with his girlfriend. Not with me." I gulped. "So I showered in his shower, but since it was at night and I put on my pyjamas after the shower, I left my bra off. So when I took my towel and bra to go back to my room, my bra must have fallen out of my arms." phew, that was another close call Y/N, luckily you are a great liar and always have the situation under control. With a proud smile I turned to Tom who rolled his eyes. Huh... Seems I wasn't quite as believable after all.
"So you only had cold water eh?" Harrison asks with a suspicious look.
"Yupe" I plopped the p. I feel horrible lying to Harrison, and I have been for several weeks now. I don't know how much longer this can go on, my guilt is eating me up, but on the other hand... I really do lo- like Tom....
"Trust me mate, I have a girlfriend" Tom added and in the second Harrison looked out of the window and wondered if he should believe us, Tom winked at me. Is he trying to tell me that I'm his girlfriend? Fuck no ! But what if...- Nah!!!
"You are right. I guess I've just been a bit suspicious lately. Jenna keeps telling me that too... I'm sorry" He apologised, to US. Damn it, I can't take much more of this. I forced a smile on my lips and nodded softly before Harrison disappeared back into his room. Phew, I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding.
"We need to tell him... soon" I started, bringing my attention to Tom who looked at me with a look I couldn't quite make out. His eyes were wide open, his face was a little pale and he held his breath deep in his lungs.
"Tell him? what? that I fu-" At that moment my phone rang. Oliver. Tom didn't manage to finish speaking as I took the call and put it to my ear.
"I'm outside, you coming?" he asks.
"Yeah, give me a second" I hung up and grabbed my handbag with a big grin, I can't wait to find the perfect dress that Tom will love on my body.
"Where are you going ?" Tom asks with a frown from the couch, watching me as I walk towards the door.
"You'll see, patience big boy" I smiled at him before leaving the flat and making my way down to Oliver's car.
"Well hello Ms Osterfield" he greeted me when I opened his car door.
"Yeah yeah, drive already, I wanna try on some dresses!" He chuckled and drove off.

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After 3 hours in different dress shops, we finally found the perfect dress for the party. The perfect dress that I knew Tom would love. It was wine red, tight on my hips and had a slit at the right thigh. I even took a few mirror photos, I was going to send one of them to Tom but I didn't, it's supposed to be a surprise. In between, we also went to one or two shops for Oliver, who luckily wasn't picky and just took any suit. I told him he should wear an all-black suit, which also means a black shirt because that would look fucking hot, but he wouldn't listen to me and bought a normal simply grey suit. We had Chinese food before he dropped me off at home.
"Hey, where were you?" Harrison asks as I place my bag on the dining table where he is having a cup of tea while scrolling through instagram.
"Shopping with oliver" thereupon he raises an eyebrow.
"My oliver?" he asks. I look at him confused at first. His oliver? but then I remember that oliver is his secretary.
"Oh yeah, your Oliver. He's pretty nice" I compliment.
"Yeah, one of the best secretary's I've ever had, so don't screw him!" I roll my eyes, take my shopping bag and go into my room, closing it behind me. I had nothing else to do today, and I like to go to bed early and watch something, so I took a shower first, taking my time, and then did my wonderful facial routine just for smooth skin. But it's worth it you know, I don't have a single pimple anywhere. As I threw myself onto my bed in my oversized jumper and grey sweatpants that were way too big, I heard a ping from my mobile phone.
Tom:
Come to my room, make sure Harrison doesn't see you xxx

Y/N:
on my way
I closed my phone, excited for whatever Tom had planned. I opened my door quietly and carefully, went down the corridor a little where Tom's door was already open a little crack. When I heard footsteps coming from the kitchen I knew it was Harrison's, so I quickly scurried through the crack into Tom's room, not turning to him yet but closing the door first. I sighed, turned around and my eyes widened. For the first time I saw the curtains open in Tom's room, a beautiful view of new york that you couldn't see so well from my room. He had set up a projector which projected a huge image onto his wall. The Disney film 'up' as the title picture. My favourite film.... I looked over at tom's bed which was facing the wall, he was lying on top of it, resting on one elbow, the remote control in his hand. He looked into my eyes with a broad smile.
"Hellou Princess" he greeted me with a slight voice crack. But nothing came out of my mouth, I was so amazed by what was in front of me that I just couldn't talk anymore.
"Wha- What is... all this.." I finally managed to get out of my mouth. I looked around and slowly approached his bed.
"I thought we could have a little movie night. Just you and me, no Harrison" I smiled at his words, my heart practically melting, all this, just for me.
"Yeah, yeah I would love that" He holds out his hand for me as I stand a meter in front of his bed. I gladly take it, and climb into bed next to him.
"Up, is that okay? I kind of found out it was your favourite movie so I thought maybe you would like it" he explains, sounding a little nervous.
"You kidding me? I love it..." I look at him and for a moment we stare at each other. Just the two of us on his bed. No one has ever done anything so sweet for me, I wish I could tell him how grateful I am. How grateful I am that he does all this, that he brings a smile to my lips every day and makes my day a thousand times better just with his presence. I lean in to kiss him and luckily he does too. Our lips collided and our tongues dance in sync, but my thoughts... they are somewhere else.
I'm going to tell him, right here, right now. How hard can it be, I love you. I love you. I love you

I Love you...

No, I can't. It's too early... is it? damn it is. This is wrong, what would my brother say? He'd kill me if he knew I fell in love with his best friend. He'd forbid me to have any contact with Tom, it'd end up like that party back then. Tom and I would start hating each other again and-
"Hey you okay?" Tom interrupts my horrible thoughts as he notices I hardly kiss anymore and my eyes twitch at the scenarios going on in my head.
"Uhu, yeah sorry. Just my thoughts.." Tell him. My stomachs tried to tell me.
"Then let's start the film I guess" I nodded at him, a little grateful that he was distracting me from my thoughts. I think I should wait for him to make the first move. How long can that take? 1, maybe 2 weeks. Three at the most... And then when he does, I really have to worry about what happens next, and well... how I'm gonna tell Harrison... God, he's gonna kill me !