no matter what decision your heart makes, I will be waiting for you...

Chapter 5

I went to shower, certainly for 30 minutes that my skin was slowly shriveled but I had to stop thinking about tom, better said what happened.

I hope he doesn't want to talk about what happened, at least I don't, but I still don't understand why he was cuddling with me

I mean did he think I was cassie? Was he still in his dream? Or did he know it was me

This is just weird, I should stop thinking about it

After I got dressed and did my make up, I hear my stomach growl, it often does because I am often hungry

I go into the kitchen, fortunately Tom is not there yet. I sit down at the table and fill my bowl with cereal

A few minutes later I hear his door open and he comes out wearing only shorts and wet hair, a few of his wet curls hanging in his face and honestly he looks cute with his hair lightly in his face.

I look up briefly and straight back at my cereal and pretend not to notice him

He goes into harrison room and comes out after a minute

He puts one of his shirts over his head but it is a little tight so you can see his muscles through the shirt

"Mornin" He mumbles and sits down in front of me at the table

"M-mornin" I look up briefly but directly back at my phone which I held with my left hand while I held my spoon with my right and to eat my cornflakes

It's quiet for a moment, tom is busy pouring cornflakes and milk into his bowl and i'm..., well i'm pretending to text with someone but i'm just switching through my apps

"Why did you do that?"
I hear Tom's voice ask and look up at him, he looks at me and puts his spoon with cornflakes into his mouth

"What?" I look at him, confusion lingerin in my question.

"Sit on my lap !" He says it with an arrogant tone and rolls his eyes back and then looks back on his spoon

"I could ask you the same thing, why did you cuddle with me?!" Well, now he looks angry at me, maybe I shouldn't have grumbled at him like that, but he deserves it.

"What the!!! Whatever!!! Cuddling is not the same as sitting on a boy's lap in the morning !!!!"

"This wouldn't have happened if you hadn't begged me to lie in your arm again" That was good Y/N , a very good sentence , what he might have to say about it?

"Oh shut the fuck up are friends not allowed to cuddle?!"

"I think friends is the wrong term at the moment !!" That was the last thing I said before I got up, put my bowl in the sink and went back to my room before he could say anything else.

You lie down in bed and look at the ceiling

You play with your arms in the air and think about what he said

Are friends not allowed to cuddle? Really just friends? I mean of course only friends but for a short moment it felt like more. As if he enjoys that I lie in his arm

I should get busy with something else, maybe I'll ask one of my friends if we want to do something.

And that's what you did, you arranged to meet derrek one of your old high school friends for coffee at 2 pm

I just put on some nicer clothes and took my handbag

I make my way to the hallway where I see tom on the couch again, god why can't he just stay in his room?

As I opened the door to go out he notices me

"Hey where are you going?" He doesn't say it in a nice calm tone, but in a stern father tone

"I'm just meeting a friend for coffee, problem with that?" I look at him annoyed, he gets up from the sofa and crosses his arms.I close the door behind me again and look at him

"Yeahh , who is this friend?" He scoffs and comes closer

"None of your business Tom" I want to open the door but tom pushes it shut again with his hand

"What does haz say about it?" He grins

"He knows derrek and he likes him, so let me go Tom!" It wasn't a lie, he really knows derrek but he doesn't like him. Not that derrek is a bad guy he just sometimes does bad things like taking drugs which makes him aggressive.But if you really know him he isn't a bad guy

Tom's hand slowly goes down from the door and allows you to go out

"Thank you" I look at him one last time before I go out but he looks down

I walk down the streets through the crowds until I arrive after 10 minutes at the cafe

He is already sitting inside, I can see that because he is sitting directly in front of the window with a cup of coffee in his hand.His light brown hair hangs slightly in his face but so that you can still see his green eyes, he wears a black simple tshirt and ripped jeans pants

I hug him when I am inside and sit down at his table

"So how are you?" He smiles as he asks

"good , good what about you?"

" yeah I'm great, got a new job..."

"Oh really? That's nice" you smile softly

"Yes, I was really lucky to get this job"
He smiles, he seems to be really happy and that makes me happy for him, he often had hard times back then.

"I am really happy for you"
At that moment my coffee arrives that I ordered

"Do you still live in an apartment with your brother and this tom?"

"Yeahhh..." I'm looking down, I've dragged the yeah out a bit, it's a bit embarrassing to be honest, all my high school friends have jobs, boyfriends and girlfriends and live alone with them while I still live with my brother and his best friend. I'm not so worried about the job, Tom and Harrison both make pretty good money at whatever they do, I've never really asked but I don't really care.
Maybe I should ask harrison if he can help me with a job, maybe then I won't feel so alone or as if I have at least achieved something in my life.

After 2 hours of talking about various topics he takes me home

We stop in front of my apartment and I hug him before I leave.

"It was really fun talking to you, we should do it more often" I say

"Yes, maybe, maybe we could go on a date next week if you want to" He looks at me and waits for an answer

"Yh yeah I mean why not?" To be honest I'm a little nervous, I haven't been on a date in a long time and most of them just wanted the one thing then if you know what I mean...

"Perfect, I'll write to you when and where"

"Alright"

After that I got in my apartment again and he goes home

A little shorter part, I promise to post more next week, thanks for reading, love you guys♡