𝗛𝗲𝗿 𝗘𝗻𝗱𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗠𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗰: #1

28: Ditch

28: Ditch

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''Nakakagigil! Bat ba siya ganon?!" Mahinang tanong ko da sarili ko pagkatapos ng debate ceremony na yon.

Nasa likod ako ng classroom at nakaupo lang sa sirang upuan habang naiiyak sa kahihiyan. I can't face everybody, because of what I answered. Isang napakalaking kagaguhan yon.

"Bat niya ba naisip na ipasok yon?! Tangina ginagawa niya ba akong mali?!" Anas ko tsaka sinuntok ang bag kong nasa harap ko.

I was about to throw it away pero dumating siya.... "Why are you here?! Pagkatapos mo akong ginawang example dun? Ano bang gusto mo ha? I-is this your revenge..? If oo, sabihin mo kung anong gusto mong gawin ko Justin! Wag mo naman akong ipahiya oh..."

"Jas, I'm so sorry..."

"Sorry?! Na naman?!"

Humakbang siya papalapit sakin kaya tinuro ko siya, "Don't come closer... Please lang. Baka anong magawa ko sayo Justin. I thought no feelings engaged tayo dun? Bat ka gumaganon sa maraming tao? Ginagantihan moko? Ano bang kasalan ko sayo ha? Samantalang ikaw nga andami mong kasalanan saki-"

I was cut off when I saw his tear, "Damn... di ko alam Jas. I don't know what I did to you! Shit." sinuntok niya yung pader kaya napaigtad ako.

I looked at his face and now it's more painful to see him silently crying. Parang naguilty ako... hindi! Hindi ako maguguilty bakit naman ako maguguilty?!

"Oh? Suntok suntok ka jan?"

He looked at me and now his eyes was full of tears, "Damn you Jas. Damn you, you're so selfish are you?" tanong niya sakin.

Lord, kailan ba matatapos ang pagiging ganito? I don't know, I'm an overreacting bitch right now or forever. Kailan kaya ako makakalabas sa kulungan ng mga problema?

"Selfish? Ako? Bat ako? Bat hindi ikaw?" Tanong ko na nagpangisi sa kaniya ng maginaw.

I was going to answer when I heard the bell rang. I looked at him plainly, enough for him to divert his gaze.

“Stay away from me..” I added.

Naglakad na ako patungo sa classroom tsaka patuloy na pinupunasan ang mukha kong may pawis. I'm so nervous, I think we'll be having our test for today.

Pagpasok ko sa room napatingin ako sa mga kaklase ko, hindi naman nila ako napansin kasi sa back door ako pumasok. I was going to close the door when someone pushes it too.

I aggressively got my hand back when he caresses it, I mean it was an accident but I'm annoyed.

Umupo ako sa pinakalikod na upuan at napabuntong hininga. I'm still conducted and confused at the same time while listening at him kanina. He's been throwing some rough words at me infront of many people.

“Jas, bat ka nawala?”

At our last subject, Ice came up, kakarating niya lang and he immediately ran to me as if he's looking for me but I noticed something at his face... dark spots.

I chuckled, “Dapat nga ikaw tinatanong ko niyan eh... kala ko ba susuportahan moko?”

I was very happy that he volunteered not as my suitor to help me probably answered the debate with Justin. But I'm disappointed too the fact that he's not there screaming and shouting my name.