𝗛𝗲𝗿 𝗘𝗻𝗱𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗠𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗰: #1

43: Leave

CHAPTER 43: LEAVE

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Being a pessimistic in everything makes me wonder how much could life afford when I get drunk and kicked between misery and problems? Paano ba kasi naging mabuti para sa’kin ang iwan?

“It’s just that, sometimes you just need to like the misconception all over the place,” I heard him replied when he heard me asking myself something. A non-sense question.

“Fine, okay, just... let's be quiet for a while okay? Nag-iisip pa ako,” I uttered, tumigil naman siya at hindi na nagsalita.

I looked around at the lively and lovely sight we are looking at. Halos maduwal ako sa haba ng building na ‘to sa California. How rude am I not to make myself explore the place? When I'm even here for a vacation?

“Aalis kana?”

Napalingon naman ako sa kaniya, I nodded. “Yes, but don't worry, I'll visit you or dad some other time. Pasensiya kana ah? I can't bring dad, halos ubos na din kasi yung pera at allowance ko, ayaw ko naman manghingi kay mommy, is that okay with you?” I asked, barely pronouncing the word. Hindi ako masyadong fan ng mga bagong damit, so... I can help dad.

He look at me in the eyes, “You know, can't you just stay here? Ilang araw lang naman..”

I slightly smiled, “Sorry, may mga exams at curriculums pa kasing pinapaasikaso sa 'kin, I'm sure mabilis lang ‘yon. I'll bring Ice here too,” sabi ko at tinapik siya sa balikat.

“Is our deal done now? Aalis kana... diba? Is it done?” nakalabing aniya niya. Tumawa ako.

“Hindi pa, not until I leave already. Pero beyond all of this pretending, I will always owe you my thanks Justin. I'm sorry din ah?” I smiled faintly, ang init kasi sa rooftop and I'm just wearing my sleeveless.

“Other time Jas, make sure hmm? Pwede pa naman diba? If only I knew that I'm... too late no? Hays, basta. You're gonna pack your things,” umalis na din siya at ako naman ang tumingin sa paa niya.

He was breathing heavily, beads of sweat started to build his forehead too. He's upto something.

“Justin,” I called him, but nothing's changed when he stared at me.

Is he stopping himself from breathing? Or is it just me who saw? Okay naman siya diba?

Tatawagin ko pa sana siya pero madali siyang tumalikod at saktong naman na tumunog yung cellphone ko.

Samantha:

Uuwi na u? Punta oks sa airport now, hintay ako sau, boring sa bahay eh... Sy!>.<

I smiled.

Jasmine:

Oo, uuwi na me. Pero, mamaya pang gabi ako dadating sa pinas... can you just fetch me later?

Isinilid ko yung cellphone ko at magbuntong hininga. “Ice naman... magreply ka.”

Hindi pa din ako mapakali na hindi siya sumasagot sa mga chat ko. He was online yet he was ignoring my pieces, and even my messages.

Umalis ako sa rooftop at pumunta sa floor ni papa. He was still in comma. Halos hindi ko na makilala yung mukha niya sa tanda, concerning pattern ba talaga ako? O talagang may gusto akong ipahiwatig sa pamilya na nang-iwan sa kaniya? Paano kaya pag nalaman ni kuya na ang pinakamamahal niyang babae ay ang ugat at alam ang lahat ng ito.

“Dad? Something else tried to call me again. Are you playing? Is this your trick that you always use me? A players trick? Tell me dad, ganon ba ako kahirap mahalin para pagbawalan mong maramdaman ang pagmamahal mo? Am I that bad? Sana pag-gising mo ihatid moko sa stage ng school, tell them that I am your daughter. 'Wag, na 'wag mokong susukuan papa... Mahal kita, paalam po....”