CULLENS || TWLGHT OS 01

Felix Volturi | Size Doesn't Matter

By : volturidoll13 | Tumblr

🍷FELIX VOLTURI X HUMAN MATE ONESHOT🍷

You're Felix's human mate, and a little extra curvy. One day, you can't help but feel a little bit of self-doubt about your looks. Will Felix be able to cheer you up and show you that size isn't an issue...?

• angst; language; fluff; TRIGGER WARNING: body dysphoria/self-love struggles

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You stand there in front of the mirror, regarding your own reflection with a sense of self-loathing, as well as disappointment. It had almost become a sort of ritualistic routine for you every other morning, standing in front of the mirror and finding new things wrong with your body. You couldn't help it; you knew deep down, that you really shouldn't feel this way.

Felix told you all the time that he thought you were the most beautiful creature to walk the face of the earth. He was biased though, him being your mate, and all. The door to his room suddenly opens, and the man himself walks in, removing his cloak and hanging it on the hook by the door, before he closes the door.

He sees you standing there, and when he gets a good look at the expression on your face, his eyes seem to sadden a little bit. He comes to stand in front of you, taking your hands in his. "Hey, you.... Is it bad again today?" he whispers, his thumbs gently rubbing soothing circles into the backs of your hands. You nod, feeling the tears well up in your eyes, despite you not wanting them to.

He shushes you softly, pulling you against him in a hug, kissing the top of your head. "I just don't understand." you mumble against his chest. He pulls away to look at you, his head tilted slightly in confusion. He doesn't get it, does he?

"They're all so skinny and pretty, and everyone adores them...! Heidi, Renata, the secretaries, god... Even Jane, with her perfect babyish face! I see the way they look at me sometimes, like they all wonder why I'm even with you. Like I'm... Like I'm not enough. Maybe they're right." you whisper, your voice breaking a little as the tears finally spill out, running down your face.

The look on Felix's face makes him look like a kicked puppy, or like someone just told him he'll never be able to feed on humans again. There's so much hurt and sadness and sympathy there, it makes your heart ache even worse than before. His crimson eyes water with venom as he gazes down at you.

"Y/N... Ohhh, sweet girl. Do you really not see yourself the way some of us see you? The way I see you??" he breathes, his own voice cracking on the last couple of words. You stare blankly back at him, your emotions and thoughts a chaotic maelstrom inside your head. Felix lets out a soft, shuddering sigh, swiping at his eyes, before turning you to face the mirror again. His hands glide down the length of your body, stopping at your midsection and hips.

"What do you see, Y/N? Tell me." he whispers. You reluctantly look at yourself once more, the dysphoria coming back to rear its ugly head at you. "A body that's not skinny enough, too chubby." you whisper, more tears leaking out of your eyes. Felix shakes his head, his reflection frowning back at you.

"No. Not even close. Do you want to know what I see, Y/N? I see a body that holds great potential. A body that could someday carry my child, our child. A body that is capable of giving so much love, because of the soul inside of it." he murmurs in your ear, his voice gentle and soothing.

"I see someone who's been through so much, and who still finds a way to kick ass and survive it all. I see someone who is so much more than what other people, including herself, give her credit for." Felix adds, circling his arms around your waist. His red eyes meet yours in the mirror, and he gives you one of the kindest smiles you've ever seen. "Trust me, little one. Everybody struggles with self-love. Including me." he murmurs.

You turn around to look up at him, your tear-stained face doubtful. He nods, scooping you up into his arms and moving to sit on the couch, with you on his lap. "Fuck, man. You think it's easy being this tall?? I tower over everybody, and everything. And then there's the matter of my strength. I can't even begin to tell you how terrified I was during my first weeks as a newborn, or how many doors I've wrecked over the years, simply from trying to open them." he says.

The thought of Felix trying not to manhandle a door and instead trying to open it gently has you fighting back a tiny smile. Your mate sees it though, and takes it as a sign to continue. "Trust me. Everyone struggles. Demetri's secretly insecure about his appearance too, although he'd kick my ass if he knew I told you. Same with Jane. You ever wonder why she feels the need to have 30 different shades of black eyeliner and shadow? It's because she's still unsure of herself, too." he continues.

"Mia dolce bambina, they look at you the way they do because they have their own struggles to deal with. They've been there, and it's not an easy place to escape from. They wonder, because they've lived it." Felix says gently. He wipes away your tears, softly stroking the side of your face.

"Sweet girl, if you ever thought size was an issue, you need to remember who you're talking to. You know, D once made a joke that I have a size kink, because I like my women short and curvy. I mean, maybe he's not wrong." he tells you with a wink. You can feel your cheeks redden with a blush, despite the lingering feelings of dysphoria. Felix chuckles softly, pulling you into another hug.

"Oh, honey. You should know size was never an issue for me, whether it was height or weight. I don't care how many times I have to say it to you, it's true. Size doesn't matter. You're beautiful just the way you are, please don't ever try and think otherwise, or change that. Nothing is ever going to make me love you any less, Y/N. You're stuck with me for life, you know." he tells you, grinning. You look down at your hands, biting your lip softly, before looking back up at him.

"You really think so?" you whisper. He nods, winking at you again. "Oh, I know so. I've got myself a real winner, here. Now... Why don't I show you just how much I love that body of yours, yeah?" he breathes, a purr in his voice. As his mouth meets yours in a soft kiss, you can feel a sense of lightness in you, almost like a heavy weight has been lifted.

Your mate honestly did make some positive points, today. The prospect of being able to carry his child and bring life into the world later on, and the way he looked at you sometimes when he thought you didn't notice... Maybe it was all true. Maybe he was right, that size probably didn't matter.

You knew it was going to take a little more time to feel a better sense of self-worth, but you also knew Felix wouldn't mind. That man would wait for all of eternity if it meant he could spend it with you by his side. Maybe that's all you needed, right now...

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• "Mia dolce bambina" = "My sweet little girl"

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