We met again in fall (book 2 of Just a professor)

Questions

Aubrey POV

We sat there in the dinner looking at the menu. I didn't really know how to start the conversation and dig in more so I waited until she would say something.

„Do you have any allergies? Or anything I should know about?" she asked me and sounded genuinely interested.

„Not that I know. But thank you for asking." I answered and she nod.

After some minutes we ordered and it was silent again.

„Why did you have to give me away?"

„Hm?" she asked back and I felt like I pulled her out of her mind.

„You told me earlier that you had to give me away because of your parents? What was the reason?" I asked and she collected herself to talk.

„I was in college at that time. I got pregnant with you and my parents where really conservative. Our family is well known in the interrogation section in the FBI. There was a case that my parents where signed up to. It escalated and they got threatened and thy involved me in it even though I was a simple college student. They told me to give you away and that was the only way to keep you safe.
I'm endlessly sorry that I never got to be in your life. I didn't get to see you walk for the first time or say mom. Or fall in love for the first time. I was told that I should keep my distance and that's also why I never contacted you. Aubrey this is something I'll never forgive myself for but I hope you can give me a chance to make it up to you."
She placed her hand on mine stroking it to give me comfort. The comfort I needed all along and never got.

„God that's messed up." I breathed out and she chuckled while whipping away her tears.

„It is." she replied sadly.

„Do you plan on moving to work in Quantico?" I asked and she was a bit taken back.

„How'd you find out?" she asked and I shrugged my shoulders.

„I know my ways to find out everything I need to know. It's pretty far from LA." I answered.

„It is. But I'm not sure if I'll do it. I mean you came into my life and I'm not planing to change it by moving away with the family. Besides they go to college and I want to be close. So I didn't take the offer yet." she replied and I nod.

„What do your parents think that you are looking for your biological mom?" she asked and my expression changed. My heart aches once again to only thinking back to the things that have happened.

„T-they don't know. It's complicated." I whispered and my response showed already that this isn't an easy topic.

„Why?" she asked carefully and I know I need to tell her why.

„They died almost five years ago." I replied and her eyes grew wide and she let out a small gaps.

„God Aubrey I'm so sorry." she answered and I shook my head blinking the tears away that formed in my eyes.

„No it's fine. I've never had a good relationship to them anyway. They hated what I did and how I am.
I never got any comfort or affection. They where in a car accident while they where on their way to see me graduate from college. I got my testament from them and that was when I found out about you. In their letters they left behind. A-and now I'm here." I chuckled on how absurd this actually sounds.

„I wish I could say anything to give you comfort but I'm in loss of words. I don't know what to say but I'm extremely sorry for what you had to go through." she answered and I nod giving her a half smile.

„That's really ruining the mood. I should probably talk about something else." I tried to lift up the mood because I didn't want to drown in shitty emotions. I already think enough about Lizzie and me.