We met again in fall (book 2 of Just a professor)

Letter's that change everything

Aubrey POV

„Okay. So let me get this clear. Caitlin broke up with you because she saw in the press that it looked like you had something with Lizzie." I nod while eating a big spoon of chocolate chip ice.

„Then you started to really have something with Lizzie and it went well. But you had that huge fight in New York and you left. Now your here. You got disowned from the testament of your father. You got two letters which didn't have opened yet. Oh and don't let me forget Lizzie didn't get the letter she was supposed to get four years ago. Did I forget anything?" she asks while taking a sip of the alcohol.

„no you didn't miss anything. You understood it right. It's fucked up i know. I don't even know what to do anymore." I replied and she punched my upper arm.

„What the fuck vi? What was that for?" I asked while rubbing my pain away.

„sorry but this is for not calling me in the first place. Even if I would have been on the moon or god knows where you are supposed to call me."

„I know. I just didn't want to ruin your vacation."

„Vacation isn't as important as you are. Now. Do you feel better after telling me?" she asks and I shrugged my shoulders.

„I don't know what will make me feel better vi."
I replied honestly and she nod while passing me the bottle.

„Okay. That's fine. We can't always be happy or feel good. It would be surprising if this wouldn't bother you... We can work it through."

„And how? Make a check list?" I asked not being serious and her face lighted up. She almost jumped up from the couch to scramble up a pen and a block of paper.

„Are you serious? It's not gonna help-."
She shushed me with the pen and I held in for a moment.

„I'm helping you. So you need to accept my helping skills you moron. Now. Walk me through what was the first thing you wanted to do before you had a fight with lizzie and left?" she asks me and I thought for a moment.

„I thought on flying back after I was at the graveyard. Back in LA I'd get to work. I have some press stuff to take care off. But that's not the most important thing. What I really wanted to do was see Robbie. Ask where the letter is. The one that was for lizzie. I was actually planing to punch it out of him if he wouldn't open up." I explained and she she started to write things down.

„Okay okay. That sounds like the Aubrey I know. Then what? What about your letters? You should read them." she writes down some stuff again and I  took a deep breath thinking back to the meeting in New York.

„I don't know vi. I feel like something in my life will change as soon as I open the letters." I answered and she shook her head.

„It will also change when you don't read them. It depends. Do you wanna stay in the dark and regret not reading them or do you stand your ground and read the last words. It's the same with Lizzie. I bet she would have been next to you when she would have received the letter. You said it yourself." vi was right and I need to know what was said in the letters. Even if it will hurt me.

„I can see it in your eyes bre." she added as she placed her hand on my knee while I sat crisscross.

„What?" I asked and she chuckled slightly.

„How deeply you love her. Still after almost five years. I think you love her now even more than before. I know you have ups and downs with her. But this only shows how you guys find your way back together."

I stayed silent and this was an practically agreement to what she has said. She is right. My affection for her is growing and I can't stand it. This is why it hurts so much. Because I know deep down all I want is to be with her. You can give me everything I ever wanted but i would still chose her over everything and everyone. It scares me as well because I never, never, ever felt like this before.