We met again in fall (book 2 of Just a professor)

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Lizzie POV

I've never seen Aubrey this shattered. I had no idea that she left to see her parents for the last time. The way she is breaking apart is visibly noticeable. She isn't just mentally weakened, but also physically which shows and now I know why.

„I am irretrievably sorry for what you have to go through and for what you are going through now. I don't think that I'll have the right words for the loss you had experienced. But I wish you would have told me the day you found out.You didn't have to go through it alone and you're not alone now."
She nod while sniffing and gave me a half smile.

„I've never met such a strong person. If I would have known I would have followed you in a heart beat just to be by your side... and I don't care if we weren't together back then. This goes beyond it and it's okay to share the pain because this will make it better."

„I waste even planing on telling you but I'm relieved that I did. I did I'm happy about it. Because I really needed this. I needed you the whole time."
She spoke through her sobs and all I did was pulling her into a hug that I didn't want to let go off.

Her sobs got louder and harder but this is a good sign. She need to let it out and I'm glad that I am the one able to catch her.

„I-what is w-wrong with me? All I wanted w-was his love at least right before he died b-but all I got was hatred. I-I was just being m-me for god sake's and he treated me like shit until he took his last breath."

„I know it's hard to believe for you but there is nothing wrong with you okay! I'm so sorry that he told you this but it's wrong, so so wrong to make you feel like this. You don't deserve this."
I was at a loss of words. I Didn't know how to react or handle her. This is definitely something traumatic and it will haunt her forever. I feel at rage towards her father and this really is unforgivable.

„I need to go back to New York. But I hate being there especially at his office. Everyone there thinks it's my fault why they lost their boss." she breathed out while sniffing not releasing form the hug we share.

„If you'd like I would go with you. You don't need to do it alone y'know." I offered genuinely and I don't think it's a good idea to let her go there alone.

„You don't need to do that. I don't even know if your allowed to be there with me since I need To sign some things to hand the law firm to someone else."

„No I want to. I be dammed if they wouldn't let me in. At least i would wait outside." I almost demanded and she only nod into my hug giving into my offer.

„Aubrey can I ask you something?"

„You already did by asking me this but yes go ahead." she answered and I rolled my eyes at her cockiness.

I pulled back from our hug now holding onto her arms tight. Her eyes where drained in red and still full off tears.

„Are you falling into old patterns?" I questioned and she looked confused back to me.

„What do you mean by that?" she asks me and I was a bit scared to confront her like this.

„Are you falling into the eating disorder you had mentioned when you where younger?" her expression fell and I knew immediately that I hit a nerve. She looked at me and than down at herself then back to me.

„I know it's horrible and It hasn't happened to me since 10 years but I fell into this hole since they died. Almost like a loop where I wasn't able to hold myself onto anything. It was pure nothingness. I'm sorry."

„No I don't want you to apologize. We can work through this. It'll be tough but your strong and I'll do everything in my power to help you okay." I cupped her face and she leaned into my palm as I fell how her tears connected to my skin.