can't help falling in love- spencer reid

twenty six

a/n: this chapter deals with evelyn's depression, so if that triggers you, please skip this chapter!

it had been a month since Madison had died. Evelyn had obviously taken time off. Spencer had too but after two weeks he as decided to go back to work and his neck was (mostly) healed. he didn't go on out of state cases and when that did happen, he worked from home to comfort Evelyn. today was one of those days.....kinda. Spencer had gone in, not getting a text that is was out of state. the case was about 3 hours away, but hotch had given him the option to stay with Evelyn if he wanted to. Spencer of course chose to stay with Evelyn, driving back to her house and finding Evelyn sitting at the island. "I thought you had a case?" Evelyn said softly as he came into the kitchen. "we do, bit it's three hours away, so hotch gave me the option to go or to stay." he explained, raiding the fridge. "did you eat?" he asked. Evelyn had understandably had a hard time doing basic tasks like eating, showering, changing, sleeping and getting up in the morning. "no." she answered. "Evelyn, you have to eat. what do you want?" Spencer asked, listing off a bunch of things before Evelyn cut him off. "you don't have to babysit me Spencer." she snaps at him, Spencer sighing and closing the fridge. he sat in the chair next to her, pushing a strand of hair behind her ear. "I'm just worried about you. you are depressed, rightly so, but you are loosing yourself. you aren't eating, you aren't sleeping, do you remember the last time you took a shower?" Spencer says, running a hand through her greasy week old unwashed hair. "I love you Evelyn, and I care about you. so so much. please. just let me help." he says softly, kissing her cheek repeatedly. "it's so hard, Spencer." she whispers, burying her head in his chest. "I know." he whispered. "but I'm here too help you through every step. every high and every low. I promise." he continues, still whispering. Evelyn nods and sniffles, revealing she was crying as she pulled her head away. Spencer wipes away her tears with his thumbs, kissing her softly, Evelyn kissing him back. that was their first kiss since Spencer left for the case in Texas. "lets get you in the shower." Evelyn nodded and got up with Spencer, going up stairs. Spencer had turned on the water for her, helping her undress and get into the shower. "if you need anything, I'll be on the bed, okay?" he said softly. Evelyn nodded, shampooing her hair slowly. Spencer laid in her bed, checking on her every 5 minutes, letting her take as long as she needed/wanted. her shower ended up being about an hour and a half long, Evelyn turning off the shower once the hot water had run out, wrapping a towel around her body before opening the door. Spencer sat up, looking at her. he could tell she had been crying, which was totally understandable. Spencer stood up and hugged her, helping her get dressed into some shorts and one of his sweatshirts. "Spencer, I'm tired, please." she says softly as he tried to get her to step into the shorts. since she wasn't fueling her body, she had no energy, and Spencer knew this. he sighs as he tosses them aside, picking her up and carrying her downstairs, placing her in the chair she was in before. he whipped her up some pasta with chicken, making sure the meal hit most, if not all the food categories she needed to be healthy. he made both of them a bowl, serving it with apple juice. Evelyn picked at the bowl, not touching it. "Evelyn please. you need to eat." Spencer says as he put his bowl in the sink, sitting back down next to her. "I'm not hungry." she said, her stomach growling as if on cue. "please. for me." Spencer pleaded, resting a hand on her cheek. she leaned her head into the touch, sighing as she did. he pulled his hand away as Evelyn once again grabbed the fork, beginning to eat. she ate about half of it before she pushed the bowl away, not able to eat anymore. "I'll take it. it's better than nothing." he smiled, saving the rest for later. he picked her up once again, carrying her to her room, softly laying her on the bed, Evelyn immediately crawling under the covers. Spencer stood up. "spence." Evelyn said softly, looking up at him. "I will, I promise, i'm just going to take a quick shower." he said, kissing her temple "I used all the hot water." she said. "that's okay. I don't mind." he said, going to the bathroom and taking a quick 5 minute shower, coming back and changing into pajamas. "spence." Evelyn said softly, Spencer looking over at her. "I love you." she said, Spencer smiling. "I know." he replied, crawling in the bed next to her, lying his head on her chest. he slipped a hand up her sweatshirt, tracing her scar, a thing he did to help her become less insecure. she sucked in a sharp breath as he began tracing her scar. "Spencer." she said. he looked up at her, tears pricking her eyes. "it's okay Evelyn. he can't hurt you anymore." he whispered, kissing her softly. she let out a shaky breath, nodding at his statement as she knew it was true. he traced he scar a few more times before resting his hand on her stomach. "I know it hurt right now, but I promise you, you will get through this. you are so so so strong." Spencer said. "and someday, we'll have another baby, this time together, and I promise you, nothing will every happen to that baby." he sniffled, revealing he was crying. he had stayed strong for Evelyn but below the tough shell he had on, he too was broken. "we lost our daughter Spencer." Evelyn said, tears beginning to fall. "I know. and I know it hurts, but we will get through this. together. I'm not doing this alone, and neither are you." he said, kissing her softly. "god, this fucking sucks." she says, sitting up, pulling her knees to her chest and breaking down. "Spencer, this fucking sucks. this hurts so so much." she says, Spencer wrapping his arms around her. "I know. it really sucks, and it hurts, a lot, but we'll be okay in time." he reassures her. about 15 minutes later she finally calmed down, Spencer wiping away her tears. "try to sleep, okay princess? I'll be right next to you the entire time, I promise." he says, laying on his back. Evelyn lays her head on hi chest, Spencer wrapping his arms around her tightly, kissing her head softly and rubbing her back until she fell asleep, Spencer following close behind.