can't help falling in love- spencer reid

thirty two

"goodnight mom."spencer says, closing the door to the guest bedroom. evelyn was on the couch, staring at spencer, taking in how he'd changed. "what?" he says, noticing evelyn staring at him. "nothing." she laughs softly. "i'm just really happy you're back." she says as he knelt in front of her, resting a hand on her knee. "me too." he whispered, kissing her softly. she smiles and kisses him back, watching him as he stood up. "i'm gonna take a shower if you want to come." he says. evelyn nods and stands up, following him to his room. she takes her shoes off, spencer immediately coming up to her, towering over her as he was a little over a foot taller than her. he laughs softly at the height difference. "you're so short." he laughs, looking down at her. "no, you're just a literal giant. a very attractive giant, who i'm in love with." she says, looking up at him. spencer laughs again, messing up her hair before walking to the bathroom and turning on the water. evelyn follows him in, leaning against the sink. "i'm sorry i went to prison." he says softy, wrapping his arms around her. evelyn sighs, wrapping her arms around him, leaning into his body. "it's okay, it's over now and that's all that matters." evelyn says, looking at him. "yea i know, but being pregnant against must bring back lots of memories and feelings, sad ones, and i couldn't be there to help you through that." he said sadly. "i'm not going to lie, it was hard, plus you know me, not gonna let anyone help me. but you're here now and there's still 3 months left. it's actually kind of scary how little i've been involved with this baby." she laughs softly in disbelief. "i didn't know how long you were going to be in prison, so i waited for everything. obviously i've gone for checkups and everything, but i've never heard the heartbeat, i don't know the gender, i've never even seen the baby yet because i wanted to do it with you." she says. spencer sniffles softly, trying not to cry. "evelyn, i didn't want you to do that. i got to do all that last time, you didn't have to wait." spencer says, kissing her head. "i know, but this is our first kid together. biologically. this time you're actually the father. it just, it felt different. because last time, if you were on a case and you couldn't make it to an appointment, that was fine, i'd just tell you all about it when i could, but this time, i need you there." she says. "and i'll be there. no matter what. i promise." spencer says. "please please please keep that promise. i cannot have anymore stress." she says. "i know, it's not good for the baby." spencer says, kissing her softly. he quickly undressed and got in the shower, evelyn following close behind. "see now from the front you can tell a little bit." he says as she got in. "oh just wait." she says, turning ti the side. "boom, pregnant."'she says, her bump now way more obvious. "yea you weren't kidding about that dress hiding it." he laughs, shampooing his hair. they did what they need to do and got out, drying off and changing into some close, evelyn throwing on one of spencer's sweatshirts and some of her pj pants she left there. she lays down on her back, spencer laying his head on her chest, happy to be back with her. he wraps his arms around her as she played with his hair, closing his eyes. "spence." evelyn said softly. "hmm?" he hums. "i'm really scared with this pregnancy." she admits. "how come?" he asks, looking up at her. "because i've been so stressed about you being in prison, i literally can't take anymore stress." she says. "i know, i'm sorry." spencer whispers. "no, you don't get it. i literally can't be stressed anymore. i'm at risk of having a miscarriage." she admits, spencer immediately picking his head up and looking at her. "what?" he says, not wanting to believe what she just said. "it's been nonstop stress since the moment you were arrested. stressing about why you were arrested, stressing about your bail, stressing because there was no bail, stressing because you went to prison, stressing because penelope told me you got hurt." she says, a few tears escaping her eyes. "stressing because i couldn't see you, stressing because i didn't know if you were okay, stressing because i didn't know if you would still be alive by the time we got you out. it's been nonstop, constant stress." she continues. "our baby is at risk because i'm so in love with you." she says, cupping his cheeks with her hands. "i'm sorry, evelyn. it's my fault." spencer said. "it's not. not a single bit. it's cat. and lindsey. it's their fault." evelyn says. "yea, but i could've let you come see me." he says, his voice breaking. "spencer. do you remember how i reacted when i saw you the day you were arrested? how i reacted when you had to leave?" she says. "of course i do, that's why i didn't let you come see me." he says. "exactly. it was hard enough seeing you in handcuffs. imagine me seeing you in prison, knowing i can't do anything about it. if i was able to see you, this baby would have already-" she cuts herself off. "it was the right choice spencer. and in the end, you're here, out of prison, safe and sound." she says, kissing him softly. spencer kissing her back, sighing softly as he laid his head back on her best, closing his eyes and falling asleep quickly, happy to be in her arms. evelyn in the other hand, lays there, staring at the ceiling as she plays with his hair. eventually she falls asleep, her body too tired to stay awake.